[itchy brain - changes in a wrong direction - something is missing]

lately ive had this feeling that im alright, but something feels odd. like for
some reason im alright but just because im numb and going on with the flow. i
still carry on but have no real purpose, still find no meaning behind my way
of living... its real but this doesn't feel quite real

this corporate job has changed me, in the exact way i didn't want it to change
me... ive become more selfish, isolated and prone to anger than ever before
in my life... but now i also have the money i need to live a life on my own...
only as long as i need to be a corporate drone it won't be truly on my own

i feel something inside me is missing again. like its gone to sleep. and it just
breaks my hearth so deep... it really makes me sad, i need to reach onto that
and take care of it

~ ruros