it's christmas today and for me it's a bit hard

i've spent time since lunch with my mom, her husband and my brother.
i've felt spoiled, useless and pointed at with them, specially with
her. it was good to be with my brother at the very least, but yeah...
the trauma

i remembered my grandparents and felt grateful for my childhood with
them also. and now i'm at home at least and feel really comfortable
here.

i've felt very sad today, but also grateful. also cried a lot and
succesfully avoided a big break. so it hasn't been great, but it hasn't
been the worse
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~ hope you're doing well everyone ~