have not written in a while. I have not even been reading other people's feels, for which I am sorry. The past week has been pretty rough, although I feel like I say that every week. I also fear that I am cracking. So many people have asked me if I am ok this week. Not that showing my feelings is necessarily a bad thing. I tend to deal with stressful situations by ignoring them and blocking them out completly. It is not ideal but it is a defense mechanism that is hard to overcome. Unfortunatly, I cannot block out the entre world.