Update: Woah, sorry about the formatting. Will fix.
Update 2: Fixed. Or, fixed for me.


I always feel like I'm running out of time. There are so many things that interest me 
that I wish I could work on, but I just can't. Other, more important duties, come first.

I suppose this is what being an adult is - balancing living life and managing life. 
But that sounds a little ridiculous when I write it down like that. I know life is 
made up of moments, and that you can have positive experiences at work, etc., but 
what percentage of your life do you actually live, by your own terms? You can argue a 
lot about definition here (ex. I chose my job, so I'm not miserable. I chose my home, 
and therefore my commute. I listen to music at work. Etc.), but I'm going to ignore it.

I just feel like I should always be learning. Any time something happens to me, I 
should learn something new from it. It can be serious ("2+2=4" or "you can't turn left with that small of a gap in traffic") or not ("I don't like this brand of soy sauce" or "This band seems to have three guitar players"). While my studies and life is directed, I don't care much about what I'm learning about. I care only if there's some knowledge that I'm ignoring, if that makes sense.

Whenever I bring this up, I hear someone say "I hate learning!" Just like how people 
always say "I hate math!" But those are such general and generic concepts that I find it hard to really believe. I know they're just general statements, too, of mild complaining, so I'm not hung up about it. But it just strikes me as odd.

I'm not one for "the meaning of life" or anything, but it feels like giving up. Like 
saying "I have resigned myself only to watch TV and exist." Doing nothing is valuable too (in moderation), but there must be more to life than that.

Yet I think when most people fantasize about retirement, they say "I'm going to 
retire, then do nothing." I get that you feel like taking a long break when you leave 
the workforce, but I hope nobody earnestly wants a rest until death.

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Finally broke down and learned about GPG/PGP keys today. It's one of those things 
I've seen everywhere, but have ignored. I filed it under "cybersecurity" in my mind, 
which is a file that gets opened about once per year.

It turned out to be more interesting than I thought.