Very good sleep, very weird
but fun dreams.

Less emotional today, even trying
to bring back triggering
memories, I seem more calm. The
energy is good right now, I want
to try some Hape to see if that
creates waves of lows and highs.

Energy is high, but life is
boring without her. We had quite
the adventure for a while, filled
with passion, fear, discomfort
and a wide range of the emotional
spectrum. Now I'm working and
training and healing. It's a good
foundation, but where is the
adventure? I kind of want to keep
it boring for a bit longer
though, healing and stabilizing
some of my energy.

Although it feels like the past
is coming back, I'm single,
without much to do, it's very
different this time around. I
waste a lot less energy, and I
feel quite grounded.

Gentles waves of memories, of
fantasies, I wish her body in my
bed, I wish her to be waiting for
me at home. I left the light on
last night, just in case she'd
come back. As the memories are
slipping away, I enjoy a bit of
melancholy. Fading away so
quickly, lingering in the gentle
pain it offers me. I know, it's
leaving me.