Strange first day.

It's also my first day without
coffee, I wonder how that changed
my energy. I worried most of the
day about my daughter's travel.
The road to Vancouver was quite
snowy.

I slept until 10 this morning and
still went for a nap this
afternoon for a few hours. I
wonder how depleted my energy has
been, what was I fueling on for
all this time? I'm still tired.

Lets start by resting for now.

It seems like I can decide on a
life that disregard my body
energy, where I am fueled by
other passions or ideas.

When I ended up my relation to my
ex wife, I realized that I was
quite sick. Somewhat the relation
was slowly killing me, not
healing me. I wonder if I can be
in a healing relation, what would
it look like and would I be able
to listen to my own needs over the
needs of the relation?