Woke up at 6, went back to bed,
it's going to be a gentle day.
My emotional body is scattered, I
wonder about a partner, about
sex, about my next steps. Amy
replied to me. She was on a phone
detox for a week. A positive
answer, but no follow up. What
should I reply? Do I want to
pursue that connection? Open the
door of possibilities? Or simply
move on? She connected with me,
here is a breadcrumb, I should
probably follow that path and see
where it leads me. 

A couple night of partying.
I've reach my party quota, not in
a bad way, I've just partied
enough in the last month to have
no desire to party for a while.
At least until the psytrance
party. Then it's Rise which is
less of a party and more of a
retreat with yoga, meditation
dancing, and massage.

The smoke from the fire has
arrived. The sun is red, the air
quality is bad. Not a time to be
hiking. Being by the water seems
to help capture the smoke and
make the air cleaner. The best
spot is right in the center of
the creek, on a rock, in the
middle of the forest. It seems to
clean the air the best.

I can't wait to be alone again
for a couple days. Maybe a
weekend of nothingness once more!
Resting and fasting, mediating.
I like moving from one extreme to
the other. The party Monk.

I like the city, or nature, but
not the suburb. I like to go wild
or to meditate, but not to waste
time in front of the screen.

           .,oOo,.

All right, I wrote to Amy, told
her I was attracted to her, felt
there was something between us
that could be fun to explore,
told her I was driving by her
town in a couple weeks, but open
to come for a visit soon. I feel
excited, I guess that's a nice
step. It's clear and if it's a no
I can move on from that thread,
if it's a yes, then we'll see.