I wrote her a letter. I signed
it, folded it, burned it.

I cried. I have a lot of stuck
emotions in me. Some interactions
creates more trauma, more
lingering emotions. Writing
helps. Writing by hand, without
any filters, without the worry
that she might read it one day. 

I napped and then went for a two
hour hike, down a canyon by a
river. Today feels better. 
Boxing has also be healing.
Moving the body, moving the
emotions. 

I have my first massage client
coming to my home today.

My first foray into a new way of
living, can I live from doing
massage? I haven't done a lot of
massage apart from festivals in
the last couple years. I could
live from a couple massage a day,
5 days a week. That's a lot of
client and energy management. 

I have to reflect and strategize
about my next steps. Human
connections, event, dance,
massage... ritual... I want to
spend less, need less, lighten
up the process of living, but for
now I have to prepare for the
massage in a few hours!