And so it begins.

I feel overly dramatic about this
phase of my life. I am not sure
why. It was a bit of a party
weekend, so I am a bit drained.

For the next 21 days, I will be
by myself, no partner, my
daughter is traveling. I have no
crush, nor fantasy about anyone.

I wonder about being decadent,
doing all the bad things. Which I
don't really care for, like doing
drugs by myself and watching
porn? This would be rather
pathetic. In the city I might go
out, rave, after hours, the
general meat market of downtown
Montreal. I could loose myself in
it for a few weeks. But here now,
I don't have any of that.

The new moon is coming. I would
like to do a fire ceremony to
release the past, and move into a
new phase. The moon will then be
in a full lunar eclipse early
March, a week before my daughter
is back.

A few of the elements that I
would like to work on during this
time, if I am able to focus:

 - Finalize a good part of my
   Tattoo training
 - Have at least two more magic
   mushroom ceremony
 - Continue my regular hiking in
   the mountain
 - Have a multi day fast
 - Try to not use coffee
 - Try to not smoke tobacco
 - Clean and empty the house
 - Rest, dream and cultivate my
   energy for healing
 - Spend as little as possible
 - Setup my electronic music
   studio to produce something
 - And / Or play regularly music
 - Focus on the Theater play
 - Karate, Tai Chi and Boxing
 - Mantra practice 1 hour a day
 - Build a sweat lodge on the beach

This all seems overly enthusiast,
but we'll see what comes out of
it. 

I would like to also clarify my
position with relationship. It's
becoming clear that I don't
really want to be in one, but at
the same time I feel the need to
look for something. 

Well lets start with resting
tonight.