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       Step three by Janice... 
   DIR By: chairperson
       Date: March 27, 2019, 4:34 pm
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       Made a decision to turn our will and our lives over to the care
       of God as we understood him.
       I was my own HP. I didn't trust in God, but was aware of His
       presence. In my early years, I thought of God as a punishing
       God, but as I grew older I understood there are reasons for what
       happens in our lives. That what happened to me was not about
       punishment at all. Even as I understood this, I constantly tried
       being in the front seat, thinking I could control people's
       feelings and control my nicotine addiction.
       I didn't need anyone’s help, and surely not Gods help to stop
       smoking. I could cut down or stop if I chose to. WRONG. I tried
       it all. I continued trying for years, thinking Nicotine was not
       an addiction. I just liked to smoke. Addictions were reserved
       only for Alcoholics Anonymous and Narcotics Anonymous. All those
       attempts, on my own, to control my smoking and to quit did not
       work. It was when I came to Nicotine Anonymous I admitted I was
       addicted to nicotine and I could not quit on my own. I needed
       help.
       Smoking controlled my life, and my life was out of control. Now,
       admitting I needed help was yet another task for me to overcome.
       That meant weakness to me, and for me to accept help from
       someone else, instead of me helping others was foreign to me.
       It took me months before I accepted help and understood it was
       okay. Today, I can honestly say I can and do reach out to my
       Sponsor and others when I need to.
       Now, the next step was even bigger for me, it was reaching out
       and trusting in God. I did baby steps, praying in bed before I
       went to sleep and in the shower, but not on my knees.
       I kept hearing over and over in meetings being down on your
       knees is a humbling experience. It wasn't until my experience
       with my last relationship, that I now always get on my knees to
       pray.
       There is a power greater than myself, who I call God today. He
       belongs in the front seat, and I belong in the back seat with my
       seat belt fastened. I can't stop smoking on my own.
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       Re: Step three by Janice... 
   DIR By: CarolR
       Date: March 28, 2019, 5:12 am
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       Thank you for that powerful share Janice'
       Carol
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