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       Numbness
   DIR By: Admin
       Date: June 13, 2013, 5:54 am
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       People say that when boys grow up, they "man up". By that term,
       what we all normally think would be boys getting braver, more
       adventurous and of course, a little more mature. I thought that
       growing up would be cool and stuff but what i missed out in the
       process of "man-ning up" was the feeling of numbness. Before,
       the sight of those tear-jerking movies, a close friend dying or
       a mutilated corpse would get me nauseous or tears would cascade
       down my cheeks, now i just don't feel anything. It's rather odd
       and calming at the same time, but it also scares me. Whenever my
       family have an episode, i would obviously be there for my family
       but not out of care, out of numbness instead. I don't feel
       worried or anything even when things heat up. I say the right
       things but i myself feel like i dont mean it. I don't even put
       meaning in any word i say these days. The other day, my mother
       asked me a question that kinda stirred something within me: "Why
       dont i ever hug anyone". My response was "why should i?" Simple
       things like those don't seem important anymore. It feels like im
       loosing my humanity. Is this really what it means to grow up?
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