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Suicide
By: rp Date: March 16, 2026, 9:10 pm
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I am seriously considering this option. I am becoming more and
more hopeless and cynical by the day. I am losing faith in my
religion. The small remnants of good memories of my childhood
are gradually being replaced with the bad ones, namely
compulsory schooling, reminding me that the world is ultimately
a prison, and that all outlets (I.e. religion, entertainment,
etc.) are just copes. I am unable to relate with anyone, as I
view them as inherently self interested as they have reproduced
(i.e. my parents) or will eventually reproduce and hence are
acting in their reproductive interest. Is this what "becoming an
adult" feels like? I just cannot take it anymore.
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Re: Suicide
By: 90sRetroFan Date: March 16, 2026, 11:10 pm
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"copes"
Please do not use incel terminology.
"I am unable to relate with anyone, as I view them as inherently
self interested as they have reproduced (i.e. my parents) or
will eventually reproduce and hence are acting in their
reproductive interest."
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[quote]I personally give a bonus to women who reach menopause
without reproducing, as I can henceforth look at them with
certainty that they will never be reproducing.[/quote]
Almost all Counterculture-era icons have reached this age by
now, of whom many have never reproduced. In a few more years,
even the youngest of the late 90s debut batch will be at this
age also. Surely you can find their works relatable? (I can make
specific recommendations if required.)
"Is this what "becoming an adult" feels like?"
For the majority, becoming an adult feels empowering. That you
feel the opposite shows that you are still different from them.
So if they are the typical adults, then logically you are not.
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Re: Suicide
By: rp Date: March 16, 2026, 11:29 pm
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"For the majority, becoming an adult feels empowering. That you
feel the opposite shows that you are still different from them.
So if they are the typical adults, then logically you are not"
There are some times where I feel "empowered" in the sense that
I know now I am somewhat capable of retaliatory violence. But I
admit this leads to a sense of complacency, whereupon I regret
the feeling as I ultimately am incapable of carrying out
retaliatory violence due to legal repercussions.
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Re: Suicide
By: rp Date: March 16, 2026, 11:30 pm
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"I can make specific recommendations if required."
Please do.
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Re: Suicide
By: rp Date: March 16, 2026, 11:35 pm
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"Almost all Counterculture-era icons have reached this age by
now, of whom many have never reproduced."
I cannot even trust myself, as I feel as though I am acting out
of sexual impulse, which skews my daily interactions with
others, such that I am projecting my misgiving onto them and
prejudging them unfairly (similar to how "Christians" view
children as ignoble sinners).
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Re: Suicide
By: 90sRetroFan Date: March 17, 2026, 4:22 pm
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"I cannot even trust myself, as I feel as though I am acting out
of sexual impulse"
This distrust could be valid with regard to pre-menopause
females (whom you might be subconsciously viewing as
reproductive resources) or males of any age (whom you might be
subconsciously viewing as reproductive competitors over those
resources), but I do not see how this could be valid with regard
to post-menopause females. Even if you want to have sex with
them, you are subconsciously wanting only to reduce the
reproductive sex you could be having instead, which is a sign of
Gnostic health!
"Please do."
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Re: Suicide
By: rp Date: March 17, 2026, 6:45 pm
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"This distrust could be valid with regard to pre-menopause
females (whom you might be subconsciously viewing as
reproductive resources) or males of any age (whom you might be
subconsciously viewing as reproductive competitors over those
resources), but I do not see how this could be valid with regard
to post-menopause females."
I see. My grievance was more generally about how this is
destroying previously healthy relationships (siblings, parents).
But looking back, these bonds were severed already through
compulsory schooling, which destroyed my nobility more.
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Re: Suicide
By: 90sRetroFan Date: March 17, 2026, 7:27 pm
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"these bonds were severed already through compulsory schooling"
How does compulsory schooling sever your bonds with your
siblings?
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