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Re: Dayum..Tom Petty?
By: Evil Imp Date: October 5, 2017, 4:03 pm
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[quote author=Bucky link=topic=110.msg1139#msg1139
date=1507234280]
Yesterday was my birthday, and I remembered how suicidal I was
from 22-23, and I was lucky to survive those years.
[/quote]
a belated happy birthday bucky
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Re: Dayum..Tom Petty?
By: AJ Date: October 5, 2017, 5:46 pm
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Happy Birthday Bucky, and excuse my tardiness Little Brother..
It really saddens me that both you Bucky, and Imp think/thought
of suicide. There have been times in my life when I wished I was
dead, but I never contemplated killing myself.
Then again the early exits the men in my family tree taken via
health were I thought insurance against longevity, and what ever
suffering I was experiencing at those times would be remedied
soon enough by my genetics.
I had a abnormal PSA test a couple of weeks ago and went to a
Urologist last week, they performed a series of tests including
a finger up my ass...The second time in as many weeks. Discussed
what the high PSA could mean, and given my family history with
prostate cancer that we need to be proactive and he had the
nurse draw another blood sample. He called back today and said
the PSA (whatever the fuck that is) was lower, and he didn't
think a biopsy was necessary, yet, but wanted me to come in and
give another sample next week.
Mu father had prostate cancer, my younger brother has been
fighting it for years. So I hope that's not it.
I haven't told the Wife or The Lad about any of this....I figure
why worry them until there is something to worry about y'know.
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Re: Dayum..Tom Petty?
By: indigo_dave Date: October 5, 2017, 6:09 pm
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I had a lot of anxiety in my 20's. And most of my life. Life was
a struggle emotionally many of my years. Who said that "most men
live lives of quiet desperation" ? I can google it. Anyway I
will state the obvious. I think that finding something that
fills you with that psychic/mental/emotional/whatever
satisfaction is the key to happiness. Unfortunately for me it
was music, and I wasn't working in that for a daily living.
But OTOH, there could be several of these magic bullets - the
thing that fulfills you. Yes I'm stoned.
But, if we grew up in age of doing without, we'd be happy just
to earn our daily bread. We are a product of our times. My
mother grew up in SW Georgia. Her father was a sharecropper.
Many of us here had grandfathers or great grandfathers with
similar stories.
Anyway, back to aging and death. This is something I've thought
a lot about. I want an assisted suicide plan in place (gotta
get to work on this) to (ideally) be injected with an overdose
of some sort of euphoric opioid if, lets say, 3 out of 5
criteria or 7 out of 10 criteria were met. Let's say I can't
get on and off the toilet. Or let's say I can't wipe my ass (no,
I'm not trying to be funny). But OTOH, there may be
elder-robots at some point that can assist with things like
these. So who knows.
BUT...I have all of my adult life been mindful of what I ate and
trying to walk or bike with some regularity. Not necessarily
athletically. So I'm hoping to be active to my late 80's. In my
unscientific observation 81-84 seems to be the sweet spot for
people dying. Forget about coke snorting, late nighting, what
not musicians. They don't count. But I see women all the time
who are morbidly obese. At my Chipotle (I get a burrito bowl
with brown rice, chicken, fajita veggies, diced tomatoes, corn)
I noticed 3 women who work the line that are at least 100 lbs
over. One is maybe 150 over. What kind of life do they think
they will be having. My theory (I'm full of theories) is that
you MUST be consuming at least 60-70 ounces of sugar Coke per
day. I worked with someone who did at least that.
You must think, "what can it do now to mitigate (just googled it
to make sure I'm using it correctly) my aging process". Save
money NOW. Every month . For your old age. Exercise most days
of the week. Have some alternative activity for when you don't
want to do your other one. I had neuropathy symptoms maybe 1
1/2 years ago. I went to physical therapy and got it treated. I
asked the P.T. what I could do to try and be preventitive. He
said what we were doing at the time. So I have a 2, 5 and 7 lb
dumbell - only one of each. I do a little routine for maybe
12-15 minutes virtually every day. I think it also helps my
piano playing. Stands to reason that having some tone in my
rotator cuff and arms can't hurt.
You gotta think ahead. Stoned rant.
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Re: Dayum..Tom Petty?
By: Bucky Date: October 5, 2017, 6:55 pm
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[quote author=AJ link=topic=110.msg1141#msg1141 date=1507243603]
Happy Birthday Bucky, and excuse my tardiness Little Brother..
It really saddens me that both you Bucky, and Imp think/thought
of suicide. There have been times in my life when I wished I was
dead, but I never contemplated killing myself.
Then again the early exits the men in my family tree taken via
health were I thought insurance against longevity, and what ever
suffering I was experiencing at those times would be remedied
soon enough by my genetics.
I had a abnormal PSA test a couple of weeks ago and went to a
Urologist last week, they performed a series of tests including
a finger up my ass...The second time in as many weeks. Discussed
what the high PSA could mean, and given my family history with
prostate cancer that we need to be proactive and he had the
nurse draw another blood sample. He called back today and said
the PSA (whatever the fuck that is) was lower, and he didn't
think a biopsy was necessary, yet, but wanted me to come in and
give another sample next week.
Mu father had prostate cancer, my younger brother has been
fighting it for years. So I hope that's not it.
I haven't told the Wife or The Lad about any of this....I figure
why worry them until there is something to worry about y'know.
[/quote]
I didn't just contemplate. January 2015, I made an earnest
attempt. I ended an eight year relationship in September... I
was suicidal every single day for over two months until I ended
it with her. I was sobbing in the bathtub and straight up told
her I didn't want to live anymore, and she said she needed to
leave the room. I couldn't find any solace in her, so I found a
friend online who I fell in love with. She tried to kill
herself, and I thought she was dead until I discovered her new
Facebook page in May 2015. After all that, I found an old high
school friend in January, fell hard for her, and her mood swings
and mind games pushed me to drink, and I wanted to drink until I
died.
Ultimately, I had to pull myself out of that slump, and I'm not
sure how other than my writing and music.
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Re: Dayum..Tom Petty?
By: AJ Date: October 5, 2017, 8:53 pm
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[quote author=Bucky link=topic=110.msg1149#msg1149
date=1507247756]
[quote author=AJ link=topic=110.msg1141#msg1141 date=1507243603]
Happy Birthday Bucky, and excuse my tardiness Little Brother..
It really saddens me that both you Bucky, and Imp think/thought
of suicide. There have been times in my life when I wished I was
dead, but I never contemplated killing myself.
Then again the early exits the men in my family tree taken via
health were I thought insurance against longevity, and what ever
suffering I was experiencing at those times would be remedied
soon enough by my genetics.
I had a abnormal PSA test a couple of weeks ago and went to a
Urologist last week, they performed a series of tests including
a finger up my ass...The second time in as many weeks. Discussed
what the high PSA could mean, and given my family history with
prostate cancer that we need to be proactive and he had the
nurse draw another blood sample. He called back today and said
the PSA (whatever the fuck that is) was lower, and he didn't
think a biopsy was necessary, yet, but wanted me to come in and
give another sample next week.
Mu father had prostate cancer, my younger brother has been
fighting it for years. So I hope that's not it.
I haven't told the Wife or The Lad about any of this....I figure
why worry them until there is something to worry about y'know.
[/quote]
I didn't just contemplate. January 2015, I made an earnest
attempt. I ended an eight year relationship in September... I
was suicidal every single day for over two months until I ended
it with her. I was sobbing in the bathtub and straight up told
her I didn't want to live anymore, and she said she needed to
leave the room. I couldn't find any solace in her, so I found a
friend online who I fell in love with. She tried to kill
herself, and I thought she was dead until I discovered her new
Facebook page in May 2015. After all that, I found an old high
school friend in January, fell hard for her, and her mood swings
and mind games pushed me to drink, and I wanted to drink until I
died.
Ultimately, I had to pull myself out of that slump, and I'm not
sure how other than my writing and music.
[/quote]
Shit buddy....That makes me sad, but doesn't lessen my love and
respect for you. It informs me more than ever about your music.
I knew you had sadness in your life but I guess I never realized
to what extent.
The strength is your own however. Your music is simply your
journal. The strength is all your own...It was always within
you....
Love is a much stronger force for joy and pain when you are
young. The older you get, you see it's real power, which is far
beyond the sexual and romantic values which are prevalent
through the narrow prisms of youth. I think you are realizing
those things now however.
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Re: Dayum..Tom Petty?
By: AJ Date: October 14, 2017, 10:10 pm
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Podcast of Terry Gross's 2006 NPR interview with Tom
Petty...Only about thirty minutes but I enjoyed it.
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Re: Dayum..Tom Petty?
By: indigo_dave Date: October 15, 2017, 6:05 am
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I think I caught the re-broadcast of that. IIRC the interview
was from 2006. It was interesting hearing Petty's mind at work.
Conversationally speaking.
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