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       #Post#: 460--------------------------------------------------
       Re: Ramsey Household
       By: MissM Date: May 6, 2013, 12:43 am
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       Zinnia Natter
       “It's not what you expected, right? The house...”
       She smiled. "No, not really... I mean, I didn't know what to
       expect, but, somehow this wasn't it... I mean, I like the
       neatness, but this doesn't exactly feel like... well, it doesn't
       seem like you, for some reason. I dunno."
       "That's because it's not. I'm barely allowed to sit on the
       furniture out here. My room is over there," he indicated with a
       nod of his head. "And it's more like a junkyard compared to out
       here."
       "Ah. That sounds a little more like a teenage guy." She smiled
       again, more easily this time. "Hal doesn't like mess, or
       something?"
       Yukito pressed his lips together, glancing around the house as
       if he didn't live there, then spoke."Hal is a very organized
       person. He likes everything in its proper place." He sounded
       like he felt as if wasn't part of the 'everything'; there was
       something not quite on-par with his voice. Anger? No... she
       couldn't decide what it was, and let it go.
       "Ahh. A neat freak." She smiled. "I've been called one, but I'm
       not. I just don't have that much to organize."
       "Do you want to see it?" he asked suddenly.
       He walked over to the door and opened it with one hand, and she
       followed at a few paces. When he opened the door, what she saw
       confirmed that he was, indeed, a 'normal' teenage guy-- at least
       as far as she was concerned. Posters littered the walls at
       various angles, and his floor was covered with clothes and
       random papers, along with a few books. His laptop was sitting on
       his bed, though closed. The bed was definitely mussed as well.
       The sight of it made her smile. At least there is one normal
       person among all us weirdos...
       "It's nothing special, really."
       "Don't say that... it's your haven, right? The place you come
       back to most often. Even if you don't think it's anything
       special it kind of is... At least its a place that nobody can
       take from you." Inwardly, she cussed at herself. I wasn't going
       to talk about depressing s***! What is wrong with me? "But,
       whatever, " she continued before he had a chance to say
       anything. "It's still a nice room."
       Zinnia heard a hissing noise, then. Yukito seemed to have heard
       it at the same time, and turned back and walked over to the
       stove, where the water was already boiling, almost spilling over
       the top. He swore in Japanese-- "くそ!"--
       then rushed over, turning the heat down and lifting the pot off
       the burner until the water was calm enough to not rapidly regain
       a boil. Then he dumped the noodles into the pot and looked for a
       spoon. She watched, moving slowly back into the kitchen, wishing
       she could help but not knowing where anything was located.
       By the time he found a spoon, she knew the prognosis of the
       macaroni wasn't going to be good. He was talking under his
       breath, clearly trying to salvage it.
       The first thing she heard clearly was "No one believes me when I
       say I can't cook."
       She winced briefly, knowing she was going to offer to eat the
       mac and cheese anyway. Before she asked, though, she schooled
       her face into a smile. "It can't be that bad, it's just mac and
       cheese, right? Add the cheese from the packet thingy, and maybe
       let the water heat for a little longer, and it shouldn't be too
       bad."
       Her stomach growled again. "If it's really too much trouble,
       though, I can go."
       #Post#: 461--------------------------------------------------
       Re: Ramsey Household
       By: Mascii Date: May 6, 2013, 12:49 am
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       Yukito Maki
       "It's nothing special, really," he said, intending the comment
       to be about his room.
       "Don't say that... it's your haven, right? The place you come
       back to most often. Even if you don't think it's anything
       special it kind of is... At least its a place that nobody can
       take from you."
       "But, whatever, " she continued before he had a chance to say
       anything. "It's still a nice room."
       Yukito frowned a bit at that. "It's just a room. That can be
       taken away. We would just have to move." He spoke
       matter-of-factly, not understanding what she was trying to say.
       But they were interrupted by a hissing noise, and Yukito swore,
       racing back into the kitchen to retrieve the boiling pot. It
       wasn't looking good, he had to admit. "No one believes me when I
       say I can't cook."
       "It can't be that bad, it's just mac and cheese, right? Add the
       cheese from the packet thingy, and maybe let the water heat for
       a little longer, and it shouldn't be too bad."
       He looked over at her, unsure. "Wait, you mean put the cheese in
       now, and let it boil a bit longer?" He picked up the box and the
       packet, reading the instruction like it was a complicated
       formula. That didn't sound quite right, although that was how
       some things were cooked, with the sauce in with the water,
       right? But the instructions said to drain and rinse first...He
       let out a sigh, now questioning himself again. If only it had
       been written in music notes...
       "If it's really too much trouble, though, I can go."
       "No, I'm sure I can do this," he insisted, stirring it once more
       and then pulling out things for sandwiches from the fridge.
       Mayonnaise, mustard, turkey, as well as lettuce and tomato that
       had already been cut before, then pulling bread out of the
       cupboard, setting two plates on the island between them. "What
       do you want on your sandwich?"
       #Post#: 463--------------------------------------------------
       Re: Ramsey Household
       By: MissM Date: May 6, 2013, 1:12 am
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       Zinnia Natter
       "No one believes me when I say I can't cook."
       Her heart went out to him. She could cook just about anything,
       but she knew that not everybody could. Although she hadn't ever
       met anyone with quite the problem that Yukito had. "It can't be
       that bad, it's just mac and cheese, right? Add the cheese from
       the packet thingy, and maybe let the water heat for a little
       longer, and it shouldn't be too bad." At least, she hoped that
       was what the instructions read... she'd never exactly made mac
       and cheese from a box, and when she did make it, she usually had
       her own cheese, and pasta...
       He looked over at her, unsure. "Wait, you mean put the cheese in
       now, and let it boil a bit longer?" He picked up the box and the
       packet, looking direly confused. She shook her head, wincing at
       his attempt to rectify the situation, but knowing she'd helped
       to make it that bad, at least partially.
       "If it's really too much trouble, though, I can go." She started
       to feel a little awkward, watching him cook for her, and not
       being able to help her.
       "No, I'm sure I can do this," he insisted, stirring it once more
       and then moving back to the fridge, pulling things out for a
       sandwich, that he'd offered to do earlier. "What do you want on
       your sandwich?" He set out several things on the counter.
       "Uh... Mustard, meat, lettuce, tomato... Are you sure I can't
       help?" She knew that not everyone was open to help in their own
       house, but she felt nigh on useless, not to mention a tiny bit
       intrusive. She wasn't used to actually being invited into
       peoples houses...
       #Post#: 466--------------------------------------------------
       Re: Ramsey Household
       By: Mascii Date: May 6, 2013, 2:18 am
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       Yukito Maki
       "Uh... Mustard, meat, lettuce, tomato... Are you sure I can't
       help?"
       He took her order of ingredients. This was something that he
       could make. There was no chemistry involved, just compiling it
       together. Stack on stack, no more complicated than IKEA
       furniture. "I can do this," he insisted, nodding his head and
       looking determinedly down at the sandwich.
       After two sandwiches were created successfully, Yukito sliced
       them diagonally in half and slid Zinnia's plate toward her,
       turning back to the macaroni and neglecting his own. He drained
       it with no problem, and followed the instructions on the box to
       the letter, deciding that he was an intelligent, high school
       aged student who could read just as well as anybody else. But
       somehow, the macaroni did not look reparable. It was way
       overcooked, and several pieces were clumped together and refused
       to cooperate. The cheese was collecting in thick chunks as well,
       but extra stirring mended that eventually, at the price of
       mushing the noodles up even more. At least it was edible, and
       the cheese was finally cooperating. Yukito filled two bowls,
       sliding a spoon in one and pushing it over towards Zinnia.
       "Itadakimasu," he muttered under his breath, the word like a
       little mantra or a prayer before he reluctantly dug in to his
       meal. Okay, so the cheese was fine. The noodles themselves, not
       so much. Perhaps he hadn't rinsed it correctly.. "I'm sorry, I
       tried." he offered, setting the bowl back down and leaning down
       on the counter as he had done before, crossing his arms. That
       was when he noticed something was a bit off...nagging at the
       back of his mind..
       He leaned down a little scratch his knee, and that was the first
       time he realized he was still wearing his pajamas. Yukito's eyes
       widened, looking down at his clothes and letting it sink in. I
       invited a girl into the house while I'm wearing this... He
       flushed from embarrassment, his cheeks quickly going a bright
       crimson. It was just a white tanktop, and very thin pants, the
       long dark purple and burnt orange stripes now mocking him in his
       forgetfulness. Zinnia hadn't said anything, though... He had
       been half-asleep when she knocked, and nobody ever came over, so
       he hadn't even thought to check...
       But he'd noticed she felt uncomfortable before. Oh, s***...
       "Um..." One hand clutched at the fabric of his pant leg, and he
       straightened up stiffly, slowly moving toward his bedroom door.
       "One second."
       He closed the door behind him, wishing for the click but
       remembering how Hal had taken away his door handle a couple
       weeks before. He cursed colorfully in his own mind, cursing
       himself for stupidity and for bad luck. He peeled off the pajama
       pants and found some discarded jeans on the floor, then found a
       sweater jacket he could put on over his tank top, zipping it
       most of the way up. And just for safe measure, he pulled on a
       pair of socks. After a moment, he looked at his socks, then
       pulled them off again.
       Wearing socks only seemed weird, right?
       He pushed the thought away, coming back out of the bedroom and
       trying to pretend nothing had happened. He kind of wished she
       would have said something, but it was already past now, right?
       But his face was still flushed from embarrassment, even though
       he tried to lean against the counter, sending her a weak little
       smile and taking up his sandwich.
       "The noodles are disgusting, right?" he asked suddenly, willing
       to talk about anything but his momentary lapse of
       self-awareness. "It's okay if it is. You mentioned making French
       food before, I know. You were going to make some for a friend of
       yours for the weekend." He took a moment to chew, contemplating
       for a moment. He remembered Zinnia saying that. At least, he was
       fairly positive that it had been French food. "French food is
       pretty fancy. You said you made a souffle, didn't you?" The word
       'souffle' sounded strange, both on his tongue and in his ears.
       He hoped that he had said it semi-correctly.
       #Post#: 473--------------------------------------------------
       Re: Ramsey Household
       By: MissM Date: May 7, 2013, 5:25 pm
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       Zinnia Natter
       "Uh... Mustard, meat, lettuce, tomato... Are you sure I can't
       help?" She hated feeling useless, which is one reason she'd
       learned how to cook--mostly bake-- and now she was itching to
       cook something again.
       "I can do this," he insisted, bobbing his head and looking down
       at the sandwich, set in his path of making them.
       Zinnia let him, watching in silence. She was struck a couple
       times of how cute Yukito was, and she smiled, thinking that if
       she was going to date, Yukito's looks would probably qualify him
       as a candidate, but also that she wouldn't really act on that
       impulse. He was way too young for her.
       She sighed a little, wishing once more that the scientists
       hadn't taken her family, but she couldn't change that now unless
       they invented a time machine that wouldn't start a butterfly
       effect. And she wouldn't wish this on any other family. She
       shifted in her chair, thanking him after he had sliced her
       sandwich diagonally in half and slid her plate towards her and
       turned back to the macaroni. She hoped it didn't taste too bad.
       After he'd portioned them out and given her her bowl, she nodded
       her thanks.
       "Thanks, Yukito." Her voice sounded fakely cheery to herself, so
       she tried to work herself into a better mood, biting into her
       sandwich and trying to ignore the seemingly awkward silence.
       Yukito muttered something in Japanese under his breath and then
       poked at the macaroni and cheese. She wondered what he thought
       was wrong with it, but she had a full bite of sandwich in her
       mouth. She chewed quickly, trying to finish and swallow it
       before he asked her a question.
       She'd almost succeeded when he stated, "I'm sorry, I tried",
       hopefully regarding the macaroni. The sandwich was fine. She
       swallowed a large lump of food, and said, "It can't be THAT
       bad", and spooned a mouthful into her mouth to test her
       statement. It was a lot mushier than she'd expected, but she
       couldn't tell if anything was wrong with it or not.
       "It tastes fine to--" He was backing away from the table, one
       hand gripping his pajama pants, face flushed so red she could
       have fried an omelette on it.
       "Um..." One hand clutched at the fabric of his pant leg, and he
       slowly moved toward his bedroom door. "One second."
       "Ok..." She probably looked concerned, but she couldn't help it.
       She wore pajamas around people all the time, even Dox, although
       she did become a little more conscious about herself when he was
       around. Not enough to change, though Yukito was abnormally shy,
       so maybe that's why. But what did she do to make him feel like
       that? He'd been fine with it before, and searching her memory,
       she couldn't think of anything... at least, nothing specific.
       He closed the door behind him, and she waited for the click
       until she noticed that there was no door handle. She frowned,
       but put it out of her mind, turning her eyes down to her plate,
       a short blush rising. Even if she couldn't see anything, she
       would give him his privacy... It wasn't his fault the door
       handle was gone, right?
       He came back out of the bedroom, acting almost as if nothing had
       happened, leaning on the counter in the same way as before. A
       faint blush remained in his cheeks, but she didn't say anything
       about it, opting to take another bite of the pasta-and-cheese
       thing. It was actually sort of tasty, and settled nicely in her
       stomach, keeping it from growling.
       The silence stretched for a little bit.
       "The noodles are disgusting, right?" he asked suddenly, "It's
       okay if it is. You mentioned making French food before, I know.
       You were going to make some for a friend of yours for the
       weekend." He took a moment to chew, contemplating for a moment.
       "French food is pretty fancy. You said you made a souffle,
       didn't you?"
       She'd been taken aback by his first comment, and then stunned
       that he'd remembered her weekend catastrophe... although what
       with the fight she'd gotten in with Chevy, she wasn't surprised.
       She winced, remembering how bitter their words had been...
       "No, it's not disgusting.... It's kinda good, actually, haven't
       really ever had this kind of pasta and cheese before." She
       paused, trying to remember the catastrophic weekend. She'd
       successfully blocked most of it out of her mind. "Uh... yeah, it
       was French food, but... Well, it didn't turn out so well. I fell
       asleep when the chicken was cooking, by accident, and even
       though I aired out the oven for a while, the pie still tasted
       like chicken with lemon. It was a disaster."
       She paused, then asked, "And, do you mean, did I cook a
       souffle?" She hoped she was right, and that she'd heard
       correctly through his accent. It was bad enough to have
       difficulty understanding French, but French in a Japanese accent
       was even harder... But she didn't blame him for not being able
       to speak the odd word. She still had trouble with that, and
       apparently when she spoke French she sounded like a drunk
       Frenchwoman who couldn't remember her words. She still burned
       with embarrassment whenever she remembered the day that Karl had
       told her.
       "Lemon Meringue Pie isn't a souffle. It's just a light, airy
       cake."
       #Post#: 481--------------------------------------------------
       Re: Ramsey Household
       By: Mascii Date: May 8, 2013, 2:14 am
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       Yukito Ramsey
       Once he returned to the kitchen, a sort of awkwardness fell over
       them like a heavy sheet of rain, just trickling away their
       attempts at conversation from before. Yukito nibbled at his
       sandwich, mostly prodding at the macaroni. He knew he needed to
       eat, but it had become more of a habit than anything. Hal's
       dietary rules were often broken when Yukito wanted something
       with an actual taste, and lately he needed to gain another 2
       kilograms... But he had no drive to really eat. Especially when
       Zinnia looked so out of place, eating there across from him.
       "The noodles are disgusting, right?" he asked suddenly, "It's
       okay if it is. You mentioned making French food before, I know.
       You were going to make some for a friend of yours for the
       weekend." He took a moment to chew, contemplating for a moment.
       "French food is pretty fancy. You said you made a souffle,
       didn't you?"
       "No, it's not disgusting.... It's kinda good, actually, haven't
       really ever had this kind of pasta and cheese before." She
       paused, and he arched one eyebrow, unsure whether she was just
       being nice or truly meant it. "Uh... yeah, it was French food,
       but... Well, it didn't turn out so well. I fell asleep when the
       chicken was cooking, by accident, and even though I aired out
       the oven for a while, the pie still tasted like chicken with
       lemon. It was a disaster."
       "Sounds like me," he said, smiling a little at that, his eyes
       dropping to his bowl as he did so. "But did your friend
       appreciate the effort?" He imagined that Zinnia's cooking wasn't
       as bad as she was trying to make it sound. He figured that she
       would feel bad boasting about her cooking skills when he had
       obviously had difficulty following directions on a box. Why was
       complex math so easy, heavy classical literature enjoyable, but
       something as simple as making lunch a trying task? Perhaps it
       had to do with all the brain damage he'd suffered. Yukito
       finished off his sandwich with that happy thought, imagining a
       futuristic chip that would suddenly compensate for the lost
       brain cells and allow him to cook like a master chef. Maybe that
       would be a useful skill to offer his friends...Or maybe you
       should just deal with the fact that you're not very useful, and
       you suck at a lot of different tasks which are normal and every
       day. Congratulations.
       "And, do you mean, did I cook a souffle?" Yukito flushed and
       nodded, knowing full well he had said the French word wrong. It
       really wasn't his fault entirely that he had difficulties with
       the foreign language, but it was still embarrassing to note
       anytime it came up in conversation. He didn't know heads from
       tails when it came to French or Spanish, none of it made much
       sense to him in the least. He tried very hard, but all he could
       ever come up with were words from Japanese or English. It was as
       if some part of him had just shut down the language learning
       portion of his brain, holding him back from the tempting idea of
       becoming trilingual..
       "Lemon Meringue Pie isn't a souffle. It's just a light, airy
       cake."
       "Oh?" he asked, genuinely interested. "Lemon Meringue Pie? Is it
       hard to make?"
       #Post#: 486--------------------------------------------------
       Re: Ramsey Household
       By: MissM Date: May 9, 2013, 1:47 am
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       Zinnia Natter
       "Uh... yeah, it was French food, but... Well, it didn't turn out
       so well. I fell asleep when the chicken was cooking, by
       accident, and even though I aired out the oven for a while, the
       pie still tasted like chicken with lemon. It was a disaster."
       She still remembered it. Dox hadn't been mad, but it had ruined
       her mood and she'd eventually snapped at him, ruining his. She
       still didn't like thinking about it.
       "Sounds like me," he said, smiling a little. "But did your
       friend appreciate the effort?"
       Zinnia's mouth twisted into a wry smile. "I'm sure he did, but..
       my mood was sour for the rest of the day, and I kinda eventually
       took it out on him, so we got into a bit of a fight. It wasn't
       exactly the most spectacular weekend ever. And then.." she
       shrugged. "Well, it wasn't much of a weekend after that. I left
       early." She looked down and away. She hated making Dox upset.
       "And, do you mean, did I cook a souffle?" Yukito flushed and
       nodded. "Lemon Meringue Pie isn't a souffle," she explained.
       "It's just a light, airy cake."
       "Oh?" he asked, obviously interested. "Lemon Meringue Pie? Is it
       hard to make?"
       She giggled, surprising herself, but tried to answer his
       question as best she could. "Well... I've not had any trouble
       with it, but I know P-- er, my friend-- I know he can't make it
       to save his life, and his flatmate is only marginally better at
       it. Of course, they're always competing, so that could be why
       they couldn't ever make it straight through..." She wrinkled her
       nose. The mess they had made when they tried... She was still
       finding flour in places she could have sworn flour would never
       get, a week later as she was doing her regular stress-relief
       cleaning. She shook her head, a slow smile creeping back onto
       her face. "But I don't have too many issues with it, as long as
       I have the recipe handy."
       She finished off her sandwich and what was left of the macaroni
       and cheese. "And... I've really never had this stuff before.
       It's certainly not the worst thing I've ever tasted, and I kinda
       do like it." She really did. Dox wrinkled his nose at it, said
       it was 'bad for the heart', so she never got it, but having
       tasted it.. well, ok, the cheese was maybe a little thick,
       but... Yukito had had a few difficulties cooking it, so she
       could let that slide.
       "French food just tastes and looks complicated. It's kind of
       not, really. Just presentation, and getting the ratios right...
       It's just math, honestly."
       #Post#: 527--------------------------------------------------
       Re: Ramsey Household
       By: Mascii Date: May 24, 2013, 1:20 pm
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       Yukito Ramsey
       "Oh?" he asked, obviously interested. "Lemon Meringue Pie? Is it
       hard to make?"
       Zinnia giggled when he said that, and Yukito wondered what was
       amusing about his question.  "Well... I've not had any trouble
       with it, but I know P-- er, my friend-- I know he can't make it
       to save his life, and his flatmate is only marginally better at
       it. Of course, they're always competing, so that could be why
       they couldn't ever make it straight through..." She wrinkled her
       nose, and he wasn't sure if it was at his own cooking or at the
       memory of her friend's cooking. "But I don't have too many
       issues with it, as long as I have the recipe handy."
       “I know a guy who is really good at baking and stuff like that,”
       he said nonchalantly. Socially speaking, if she mentioned an
       acquaintance, he figured he should mention one, too.
       Reciprocity, right? “Erin is really good at it, too.”
       "And... I've really never had this stuff before. It's certainly
       not the worst thing I've ever tasted, and I kinda do like it."
       He was certain she was just being nice, but there was nothing
       particularly wrong with that, so he didn't bother to argue in
       favor of finishing off his own bowl mechanically.
       "French food just tastes and looks complicated. It's kind of
       not, really. Just presentation, and getting the ratios right...
       It's just math, honestly."
       At that, Yukito gave a little scoff. “I know math. It's not the
       same to me.” He added on a little shrug, as if to say 'but
       whatever'. Yukito fell into silent mode for a moment, unsure of
       what to talk about now that he had exhausted the conversation
       until it returned back to his own lack of talents, like a homing
       beacon for awkward moments. He moved his position on the table,
       his elbow rubbing up against the note Hal had left for him.
       Yukito stared down at it for a second, re-registering what it
       was, then he picked it up off the table and put it into the
       drawer at his side. Hal's been so weird lately. I wonder if the
       other students have noticed it, too. Or if it's just for me. It
       was hard to form words for what he'd been feeling, even though
       he had given some attempts at it with Dr. Spenser. 'He's too
       nice', he'd said. Dr. Spenser was a hard man to read, at least
       for Yukito, and that made their relationship all the more
       aggravating and one-sided. But he had tried to lead Yukito as
       fairly as possible down his road to speaking more, to being more
       open.
       Even if I fail at that. Dr. Spenser knows I'm trying. Right?
       He looked up at Zinnia, then, the trail of thought in his mind
       looping back to her. “You have sessions with Dr. Spenser too,
       right? I think you mentioned that at some point... What do you
       think of him?”
       #Post#: 529--------------------------------------------------
       Re: Ramsey Household
       By: MissM Date: May 24, 2013, 3:29 pm
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       Zinnia Natter
       "French food just tastes and looks complicated. It's kind of
       not, really. Just presentation, and getting the ratios right...
       It's just math, honestly."
       At that, Yukito gave a little scoff. “I know math. It's not the
       same to me.” He added on a little shrug, as if to say
       'Whatever', and then fell silent. Zinnia didn't have a response,
       and focused on just eating her sandwich.
       Then Yukito glanced up at Zinnia and asked, “You have sessions
       with Dr. Spenser too, right? I think you mentioned that at some
       point... What do you think of him?”
       She looked at him, and then back down to her now empty plate,
       trying to come up with something to say. Come on, she thought,
       Just stop thinking about it.
       "Well... I dunno. It's hard to talk in front of him." It
       was--she'd spilled her guts to Yukito, but she'd always had
       trouble with Dr. Spenser, even though he was just as nice and
       definitely cared. At least, she thought he cared. He did work
       for Hal, and even though there was patient confidentiality, she
       was always wary that something would come up that he would have
       to tell Hal.
       "But I think I've made a little progress. I mean, I've made
       friends... haven't gone insane yet... you know, the usual. He's
       trying to get me to trust people more... it's hard to do. I
       mean..." She paused, something occurring to her.
       "Is it always hard to know when to trust people?"
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       Re: Ramsey Household
       By: Mascii Date: May 24, 2013, 4:03 pm
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       Yukito Ramsey
       “You have sessions with Dr. Spenser too, right? I think you
       mentioned that at some point... What do you think of him?”
       Zinnia looked at him for a moment, then her eyes pulled away and
       toward her plate. Yukito figured that Zinnia was one of those
       people who are always hard to talk to, because they never know
       what they can or cannot say. He couldn't be supportive or
       encouraging, but he could wait for her to be ready to speak.
       Yukito turned away so she wouldn't feel watched, when she
       decided to speak.
       "Well... I dunno. It's hard to talk in front of him." Yukito
       looked down at his hands at that, a soft, knowing smile on his
       face. "But I think I've made a little progress. I mean, I've
       made friends... haven't gone insane yet... you know, the usual.
       He's trying to get me to trust people more... it's hard to do. I
       mean..." She paused, then. Yukito waited, wondering why Zinnia
       found it hard to talk to Dr. Spenser. For himself, he figured it
       was mostly a personality thing, and the fact that he wasn't sure
       what his own mind was hiding from him, what his father was
       hiding from him...so having Dr. Spenser take the more secretive
       parts of himself and then analyze it, still keeping his
       discoveries from Yukito...it felt like masochism, in a way. But
       even though Zinnia had had a horrible time of it so far, he
       figured she would be more likely to burst out with her hour-long
       monologue, like the last time he had seen her. "Is it always
       hard to know when to trust people?"
       Yukito looked up at her, a bit of surprise on his face. You
       talked to me...and you say you haven't talked to Dr.
       Spenser...does that mean you trust me? The idea seemed almost
       too selfish to seriously consider, so Yukito's face was
       involuntarily pulled into a sort of half-grimace half-smile.
       “Hahaha...I think I'm the worst person to ask that, Zinnia.” He
       thought back to the sort of things Reese told him all the time.
       'You hold back a lot, Yukito.'
       He pushed his palms down on the counter, stretching his back
       like a cat as he considered. “I don't think it ever gets easy to
       trust people. Because people change. And the way I see it, many
       of us walk around, frustrated, because in the end, you are you,
       and I am me, and even if we were to tell each other everything,
       right now, and always, you would still be contained in your own
       body and mind, and I would be contained in mine. So I really
       don't know if two people can ever completely trust each other.”
       He stopped, frowning a little, then added quietly, “But I really
       hope I'm proven wrong.”
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