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Re: Member's Chat
By: Poppy Date: June 1, 2015, 6:05 am
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My heart goes out to you both and I will pray. xx
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Re: Member's Chat
By: Piper Date: June 1, 2015, 12:28 pm
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[font=trebuchet ms]Copied this here, because, see, Mike, we are
all struggling in our own ways. You're not alone. We need each
other. Just . . . to be there.
* * *
Well, at least we are FINALLY having a spell of nice weather.
Kev's still in bed. Not sure if that's good or bad. Need to
get him moving. If his ribs will allow.
Sigh . . .
Life has gone all crazy. Just crazy. The animals wear me out,
but I thank God they keep my focus off the endless problems.
But sooner or later, I have to address all these things.
Life is not much fun at all anymore. It really isn't, and
there's this 'me' inside of me that is not willing to just hang
it all up at 54.
I'm flagging, guys. Starting to wonder if God gives a damn.
Full moon. Still love a full moon on a silent night.
God. How do I keep going?
Cats. Hungry. Yeah, will go take care of them. Little faces.
Need me. Must get on with the mess of my life.
Where is God?
Leaves on the tree. Love every one.
Bird nests and babies.
Fireflies in one month.
Disjointed thoughts.
Losing my mind?
Sigh.
But thanks. Happy Anniversary. It feels like this: I'm still
young , but suddenly my husband, who was once my age is now an
old, old man. Insane. And cruel. No two ways about it.
I still see the boy, in his eyes, struggling to . . . just come
back and live.
Best I stop thinking and get to work. Hard work. My salvation.
Don't think, just work, do what needs doing.
What will be, will be. Jesus, take the wheel.
Like Scarlett O'Hara. "Tomorrow. I'll think about it all
tomorrow."
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Re: Member's Chat
By: Piper Date: June 1, 2015, 12:36 pm
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O Lord. My husband is not insane and cruel. Life is.
I'm a crappy writer. My one supposed skill. :(
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Re: Member's Chat
By: bradley Date: June 1, 2015, 3:34 pm
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You "are" a good writer. Ease up on yourself, forgive yourself
for not being the kind of caregiver that keeps Kevin from any
suffering at all. Does even God do that? God doesnt promise
us no suffering, just that He will be with us through it, making
it more bearable. Ask for grace for the day alone, if need be
for the hour alone when the weakest, and when the worst, indeed
pray continually while doing whatever else needs doing.
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Re: Member's Chat
By: Piper Date: June 1, 2015, 4:11 pm
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I'll be okay, Brad. Thanks for the pep talk. xxxooo
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Re: Member's Chat
By: Kerry Date: June 2, 2015, 5:34 am
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[quote author=Piper link=topic=116.msg2169#msg2169
date=1433180180]
O Lord. My husband is not insane and cruel. Life is.
I'm a crappy writer. My one supposed skill. :(
[/quote]I didn't read it that way. I read it to mean you felt
like was insane and cruel. i did a coubletake when I read this
post. I went back to reread it, and then I saw how it could be
read the other way. Oh, the ambiguities of life.
I saw my first fireflies last night. They must show up here
earlier than in Nebraska. First a straggler landed on my
windshield. "Get off there," I told it, "before I take off
driving or you're in for a rough ride." I've had fireflies
almost refuse to get off, waiting until the wind blew them off;
but this one was a smart one and he flew right away. Later on
I saw a tree all lit up. It was splendid. And then I saw
another one, a pine, this time.
When I lived in my other house, I used to sleep with my bedroom
door open since it opened onto a porch on the second floor; and
fireflies would come into my bedroom and fly around. Milhaus
found them interesting too. I told him not to eat them, and I
never saw him killing any; but maybe he did once and found out
they don't taste very good. I loved having fireflies in my
bedroom.
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Re: Member's Chat
By: Poppy Date: June 2, 2015, 6:27 am
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I've only ever seen fireflies once when we were on holiday in
South Wales in a place call Pleasant Valley - lovely name,
lovely place.
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Re: Member's Chat
By: bradley Date: June 2, 2015, 6:45 am
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My wife Emmy had a cancer surgery yesterday. They removed 1/10
of her right kidney that was infected with it. Very busy
taking care of animals, house, and going back and forth to the
hospital. I messed up my 4 tomato plants, not sure I put on
the right spray stuff to promote growth or I did it while it was
too hot. Either way, had to severly cut back the plants, not
sure if they will survive. The rhubard here is only about 3-6
inches high, slightly bigger stalks than a pencil, and all
green. I will have to wait awhile to see whats up with them.
Might try that wood ash you were talking about. Our dog
Prescilla is lonely without Emmy here, her normally prime
caregiver. This is her second day of no number 2. And have
to leave her again to go to the hospital. Pray she is able to
go when I get back a little before 4pm.
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Re: Member's Chat
By: Poppy Date: June 2, 2015, 7:37 am
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Hi Bradley, I pray Emmy will recover quickly from her op and
regain her strength.
Is it too late to plant some more tomato plants? I tried
growing them once on the sill in my back room but didn't
succeed.
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Re: Member's Chat
By: Kerry Date: June 2, 2015, 8:02 am
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Will pray for your wife, Brad.
I don't think you can kill tomato plants by pruning them. In
fact, I've heard if you prune them at certain times, it's good
for them; but I don't know when or how that's done.
Poppy, I tried growing tomatoes once in pots. That's when I
lived in an apartment with a balcony and big windows. They
grew but the tomatoes were the size of cherry tomatoes. I read
later it's easier to grow oranges indoors than tomatoes.
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