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i never thought that i could hate myself.
By: Raven` Date: November 12, 2014, 6:30 pm
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Well look where we are now. F.cking dammit.
I used to complain day-to-day that no one liked me in that way.
That I would die alone. I used to enjoy having little crushes
and not pursuing them. But now?
Three times this year. Three. Motherf.ckin. Times. Two boys and
one girl told me that they find me attractive. Granted, one of
the boys were suffering from your-friend-just-broke-up-with-me
syndrome and I happened to be the only girl there to comfort
him. But one boy told me he liked me, and he continued to give
me his sweater on a rainy day and sit next to me when I was
alone. And my friend of I don't even know how many years (we've
talked since sixth grade, but only really became friends last
year) just confessed to me.
And I. Turned them. All. Down.
I used to BEG for someone to like me! But now I'm turning them
all down, left and right!
I've made up a conclusion to make myself feel better. I told
myself that the reason I keep turning people down because I dont
want to be the asshole to end the relationship, or be at the
other end of the stick. That I watched enough relationships end
to know that they don't all work out. That I don't want to hurt
or be hurt.
But now, I just feel like an ass.
They all deserve way better than me.
They deserve better than the lazy ass that just sits there.
The best I could do for them is hug them nervously and hold
their hand. Thats another thing! I'm afraid to kiss someone! I
don't want to be giving up my first kiss to the wrong person...
Ugh.
Honestly.
I hate myself right now.
I'm just going to make myself fat now.
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Re: i never thought that i could hate myself.
By: FancyCat. Date: November 12, 2014, 8:18 pm
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/sigh
I kind of feel you, nobody likes me. And when they do, they're
someone that I don't know or I find really weird.
I frequently feel alone..
I hope things get better for you soon </3
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Re: i never thought that i could hate myself.
By: puddincat Date: November 12, 2014, 9:52 pm
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DON'T BE PRESSURED TO DATE ANYONE, EVER. You don't owe anyone
anything, and you shouldn't go into a relationship unless you
actually feel something for them. THEN you'd be being kind of a
bitch, not telling them the truth.
And I'm totally on the same page as you-- I used to really want
a boyfriend but now I could care less. There's not really a
point to dating in the first couple years of high school because
everyone's still pretty immature for the most part. I'm also
terrified to kiss anyone. Not because I'm scared it'll be the
wrong person, because sadly it probably will be; most people for
marry the first person they date. Dating for me would be about
forming a best friendship with someone that you also like to
cuddle with/ do romantic things with and that you're attracted
to, and if it doesn't last, well, at lest you have some
experience. I just find kissing gross and also I'd probably mess
it up and be awkward. [s]hahaha I'm probably
aromantic/asexual[/s] /w\
The way I like to think of it is: if you can't see yourself
marrying that person later, there's probably not a very good
reason to date them because it'll end in needless heartbreak.
And one other thing, you're NOT a lazy, good-for-nothing ass, no
matter how you feel. You're one of the most caring and friendly
people I've ever met, and it kills me to see you feeling like
this</3 you are super amazing and important and if anyone makes
you feel bad for not being attracted to them in that way, it's
not your fault and btw that's kind of an abusive tactic on their
part
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Re: i never thought that i could hate myself.
By: black rose Date: November 13, 2014, 4:35 pm
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...
what she said <3
[s]i actually am :p[/s]
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Re: i never thought that i could hate myself.
By: dawnfire111 Date: November 13, 2014, 8:42 pm
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i totally agree with puddin c: i like know nothing at all about
dating or relationships because i'm awkward and i still think
boys are gross, but i think what she said is really the truth.
listen to puddin. she knows what shes talking about.
listen, i don't think there is anything wrong with waiting for
the right person. YOU deserve so much better than being with
someone who isn't worth it. you are such a beautiful, smart, and
amazing person, ily so much<3333
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Re: i never thought that i could hate myself.
By: Jstar Date: November 22, 2014, 8:55 am
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Long story short
Most boys are stupid and retarded. I learned that the hard way.
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Re: i never thought that i could hate myself.
By: FancyCat. Date: November 22, 2014, 10:10 am
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Yeah, boys are dumb. That's why I don't like anyone xD
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