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and i wasted it all | open | just to watch you go
DIR By: Rayni
Date: August 30, 2013, 4:04 am
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[center]leo let out a long sigh, feeling pain stab at her heart
with every thought that crossed her mind. the golden femme was
sitting in the camp, right outside of the medic's den. finally
getting up, she decided to go herb hunting. poking her head
inside the den she called out,
"i'm going to go herb hunting!" and with that she just walked
out of the camp, not waiting for a response from anyone,
especially not pheo.
leo padded out of the entrance and straight into the forest,
right where she'd found a patch of marigold, and then she would
look around for some cobwebs. but along the way she found bright
red berries, otherwise known as deathberries. pausing as she
looked at them, she realized how terrible her life was and how
much worse it was getting. everybody was go hunky-dory and here
she was.
and it would be just so easy to end her life.
she kept her brown gaze on the berries, debating on what the
right choice was.
i don't have anybody to hold me back... pheo, she was my best
and only 'true' friend... and now she's betrayed me... i don't
have a family, or anybody that makes me feel like i have a
family. i have nothing to hold me back, and yet, i feel as if i
have to stay... i... i'll wait, if there's a part of me that's
holding me back i need to find out why. and with that, she
walked away from the berries and what could have been the end of
her life.
her mind still clouded on what would have been the right
decision, the feline kept on walking, focusing on her thoughts
instead of the ground, and maybe she should have focused on what
was in front of her. it wasn't even like her head was up. nope.
she was looking towards the ground, and it didn't take long
before she walked straight into a tree, banging her head on the
trunk and hissing in frustration. what was the thing that held
her back? was it her position in the clan? no, probably not. she
wasn't all that great with herbs. was it that she could have
family out there? no, if they truly cared about her they would
go out and look for her. was it because she felt she had to
protect pheo?
yes. that was it.
but why did she feel that way? pheo betrayed her, and trusted
that moron emptypromises. he was irresponsible, and he almost
got her pregnant. and who comforted pheo when she was afraid of
empty? who comforted her was she was having a nightmare? sure,
there were other cats around, but she was always there for her,
and now she ran away to live her dreams with empty.
and leo? well, she was left behind.
and she even remember when she told her about empty almost
getting her pregnant. she remembered it all, and felt pain stab
at her heart as she remembered something pheo had said.
leo... you're the bestest friend I could ever have.
lies.
all of it.
every last word.
lies.
and suddenly, she didn't feel as if she had to protect pheo
anymore. pheo left her behind, had empty and deli to protect
her. she didn't feel like she belonged anymore, so, why was she
here? maybe it was the stubbornness inside of her, or maybe she
still wasn't convinced that pheo was safe, but she couldn't
bring herself to end her own life, no matter how easy it would
be.
but she did want to disappear, just not in a dead way.
she had to disappear, if she wanted to stay sane.
because she couldn't stand that pheo and empty were in a
relationship.
plucking the marigold flowers by their stems, she started to pad
back towards camp, trying to think of a way that she could
disappear without leaving her clan with one less medic
apprentice.[/center]
#Post#: 27711--------------------------------------------------
Re: and i wasted it all | open | just to watch you go
DIR By: black rose
Date: August 30, 2013, 5:42 am
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wow <33 track
#Post#: 27716--------------------------------------------------
Re: and i wasted it all | open | just to watch you go
DIR By: Raven`
Date: August 30, 2013, 6:20 am
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She didn't mean to. She never knew that Leo felt so strongly for
her that she would consider death better than seeing Pheo with
the guy she was growing to love. But if Leo cared so much, would
- no, should - she be supportive of the relationship, even if it
hurt? That's what Phoenixpaw would do, to be honest. If she saw
Lionpaw falling in love, she would be supportive, happy, and
excitable for her best friend.
But I guess it can't be the same for Pheo.
The ginger femme didn't mean to meet up with Lionpaw - she was
just out practicing her swimming and was on her way back to camp
when she spotted the golden femme. A smile replaced the
determined frown on her face - she was frowning because she
didn't beat her record - and she trotted over to the medic
apprentice. "Lionpaw!" she purred, attempting to brush her cheek
against the other's.
[ noms on stormy and rayni ]
#Post#: 27759--------------------------------------------------
Re: and i wasted it all | open | just to watch you go
DIR By: Rayni
Date: August 30, 2013, 11:53 am
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[center]and if it was a cat that treated her right she wouldn't
feel that way, but after almost getting her pregnant - leaving
her scared to death no less - she would never want them to be
together. if he hurt her ever again, she wanted to call him out
on it, but there was that pestering part of her that wouldn't
believe that she was truly safe.
hearing the voice of pheo calling her name she couldn't help but
mentally hiss. were they going to have a "bonding experience" or
perhaps it was just because pheo didn't realize how much she
hurt her by hopping into a relationship with empty. suddenly,
something and cold brushed her cheek, sending chills up her
spine, but she just continued to walk, her gaze still focused on
the pathway in front of her.
"yes, pheo?" the feline asked, voice monotone.
[ /is nommed on
thanks, stormy. <33][/center]
#Post#: 27790--------------------------------------------------
Re: and i wasted it all | open | just to watch you go
DIR By: Raven`
Date: August 30, 2013, 2:26 pm
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"Whatcha doin'?" the femme asked, tipping her head and smiling.
It was easy for her to smile, since she wasn't being tortured in
any way. Sibuna wasn't around, she and Deli stopped fighting,
and her relationship with Eppy was going along perfect. [b]"I
just went swimming."
#Post#: 27803--------------------------------------------------
Re: and i wasted it all | open | just to watch you go
DIR By: black rose
Date: August 30, 2013, 3:53 pm
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[//is nommed on
oh my god i REALLY want to bring eppy in xD]
Stygianpaw had been out, practicing her climbing. The she-cat
was getting pretty good but hadn't beaten her personal record.
The medic apprentice huffed, down on the ground by now, and had
been heading back to camp when she saw both Phoenixpaw and
Lionpaw. "Hi guys!" she purred.
#Post#: 27896--------------------------------------------------
Re: and i wasted it all | open | just to watch you go
DIR By: Rayni
Date: August 30, 2013, 8:39 pm
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[center][omg yes bring eppy in and then he and pheo can all be
like lovey-dovey and leo will like flip out.]
"collecting herbs. and hi." leo meowed, continuing to pad along
as she talked in a monotone voice. life could be perfect for
pheo, but it was a living hell for leo.
well at least i know i'm going to starclan because i'm living in
hell right now. the feline thought with a mental snort.
[/center]
#Post#: 27902--------------------------------------------------
Re: and i wasted it all | open | just to watch you go
DIR By: black rose
Date: August 30, 2013, 8:53 pm
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[ohmygoshyessssssssssssssss<333]
Stygianpaw tilted her head. She decided to leave Lionpaw alone
and walked quicker to get to camp.
Emptypromises headed out of camp, running into the duo as they
walked along. "Hey Phi, Lionpaw," said the tom. Not knowing
Lionpaw all that well, he didn't call her Leo.
#Post#: 27904--------------------------------------------------
Re: and i wasted it all | open | just to watch you go
DIR By: Rayni
Date: August 30, 2013, 9:08 pm
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[center]"you have got to be kidding me." leo snarled under her
breath with the first sign of emotion in her voice so far.
rolling her chocolate brown optics. sure, she could have padded
away with the marigold to leave the two, but leo had held back
so much, why not just let go of some of it. "well it seems like
emptypromises has arrived, so i'm not needed anymore." it was
said only somewhat loud, but oh well. with that, she turned
around and tried to walk away.[/center]
#Post#: 27909--------------------------------------------------
Re: and i wasted it all | open | just to watch you go
DIR By: black rose
Date: August 30, 2013, 9:15 pm
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He stepped in front of her. "Wait. I want to know why you hate
me," Emptypromises meowed, sitting in her path.
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