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       Rain
       By: ThaBreeze Date: December 5, 2012, 3:35 pm
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       Why does rain cause depression?
       It is how the earth cleans itself; growing things need it to
       grow.
       How can something so wonderful cause such depression in someone
       that is Bipolar?
       It starts when you wake up.
       You find yourself tossing and turning, not wanting to get out of
       bed.
       It is such a dreary day.
       Your head and heart feel heavy.
       You want to cry but the tears won’t come.
       Instead, you cry on the inside.
       You can actually feel this pain.
       Only a release of tears can make this pain go away.
       As you lie in bed your mind begins to wonder about things.
       Life, love ones, situations and past pains.
       As you lay and ponder these things, they begin to get heavier in
       your heart.
       Your head starts to hurt.
       You start asking yourself “Why can’t I be happy?” “Why won’t
       this pain just go away?” “Why can’t I just forget these terrible
       things that I want to forget”?
       Rain coming down steady with no end in site, you can’t go
       outside, it’s best to stay in. Getting wet isn’t what you want,
       if you want to go somewhere, your going to get wet.
       Cold rain is even worse.
       You’re stuck inside for the day.
       So you pray, Please God, get me through this pain.
       I want to die.
       Seems dying is the only light at the end of the tunnel.
       Dying makes all the pains go away or so it would seem.
       As you lay there, you sink deeper and deeper into depression.
       You finally start to cry.
       This is good.
       You cry loud, you cry hard, you cry long and when it seems you
       can’t cry anymore, suddenly your heart isn’t heavy anymore.
       You soul isn't hurting anymore.
       You are finally able to get up.
       Once you’re up, you can start your day.
       The rain still makes it a dreary day, but now you can clean out
       that closet or read a good book or watch a movie.
       These things take your mind off of those terrible thoughts.
       This is a good thing.
       You’re going to be okay now.
       Until the next time…
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