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       Confessions of a Polar
       By: ThaBreeze Date: December 4, 2012, 1:58 pm
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       My body aches with dread, I sense it coming
       I can actually feel this horribleness creeping up inside me,
       threatening to consume my entire being.
       I know that it is getting to the point where I am hopelessly
       exhausted again and when I am at this point, I am at my worst
       I don’t feel like I can hold on much longer, I forget how to
       breathe
       All I see is darkness
       All I feel is pain
       I loose myself
       And I hate this
       I REALLY hate this
       Sometimes words just can’t express it. I have been educating
       myself on my chemical imbalance, which I inherited.
       You see, when we get to thinking this way or acting this way,
       saying "oh, its okay, it will be alright" doesn’t help us.
       This is something our body's control.
       I can't just say "I am not going to be sad anymore". It doesn’t
       work that way for us.
       For now, us Polars have to rely on a medication cocktail,
       finding a good caring doctor and educating ourselves on what to
       expect and how to deal with it when it happen is the only known
       therapy today.
       This is a sad reality. It does NOT make us CrAzY, in fact, we
       are all highly intelligent and realistic and very artistic and
       basically just feel emotions differently than most people.
       There can be times where you can see what is happening to you,
       you can see the path you are walking and know where it is
       leading you.
       But no matter the attempts to change your direction or halt your
       movements altogether, it seems as though there is nothing you
       can do to prevent the darkness from becoming all encompassing.
       And when it does, this is when you will struggle the most.   :'(
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       Re: Confessions of a Polar
       By: Pizmit Date: December 4, 2012, 7:38 pm
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       This is painfully beautiful  :(
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