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Re: love kills slowly. [8/16. sunset. private]
By: haro masamune Date: August 20, 2012, 10:55 pm
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"..." he caught the ring in his hand, his fist clenching around
it and held it to his chest. "Baka.... Baka yarō! Anata wa,
watashi ga anata kara hoshīmono o shirimasen! Watashi wa
dōyō shite iru naze anata wa rikai shite inai! , Anata
wa watashi no koto o okotte ete iru ka!" he growled at her in
his native tongue. something shes never seen from him before.
" 'Watashi wa! Anata wa watashi ni sekai o imi suru! Anata o
aishite watashi wa anatagahoshī, anata dake wa, kono sekai
to tsugi no! Anata wa onajiyōni kanjite imasu ka?' Sore wa
ringurīmento monodesu! Chūsei no yakusoku!"
haro took a breath, and slowly let it out in a sigh. " 'Anata wa
umi o fukumu kanto'... "
#Post#: 27421--------------------------------------------------
Re: love kills slowly. [8/16. sunset. private]
By: Kaya Mitsume Date: August 20, 2012, 11:13 pm
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She stopped moving, spinning on her heel in an almost military
fashion. She moved back toward him, and for the first time,
managed to loom, to be truly intimidating, she was so furious.
"I did not need a ring, you fool. The night I took you into my
body was my choice, my promise, my vow. Your own words threw
that night away. You accused me of fucking around on you. I
cannot. I will not. I do not want to. But you refuse to believe
me.
You cannot bottle the ocean or keep it where it does not want to
be. Stop trying to form me into your idea of what you think I
should be and see me! Quit letting your fear poison us. I kissed
him, and wanted nothing more. A kiss is affection. Yes, I love
him, but I've already told you that. I will not lie or denounce.
You hear nothing of what I say, and cannot see beyond the haze
of jealousy." A fine tremble had settled over her muscles, but
it's that of leashed violence.
No other, besides those she loved, had produced such a reaction
from her. "You will kill everything you say you love if you
continue to refuse to hear what I say. You are my future. You
can walk away, leave me behind, and I will have no other." She
turned her back, walking beneath the moon to look up at it. "I
am bound to you. By choice. Please. Do not ever make me regret
my decision that night. Question the honor of a Spartan woman at
your own risk." She said softly, flatly.
#Post#: 27431--------------------------------------------------
Re: love kills slowly. [8/16. sunset. private]
By: haro masamune Date: August 21, 2012, 12:30 am
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"..." haro sighed, letting go. "you still dont get it... why
should i think you would? jealousy? you dont understand that
emotion at all... i... i should know that by now but..." hes no
longer angry. just hurt. upset. broken up. the tears in his eyes
seem more signifigant now. were they flowing like this a moment
ago? "but you cant see things through my eyes yet? atleast
understand me?" he wasnt looking at her anymore. his eyes were
down.
#Post#: 27433--------------------------------------------------
Re: love kills slowly. [8/16. sunset. private]
By: Kaya Mitsume Date: August 21, 2012, 12:53 am
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Kaya's voice was soft as she answered, finally showing some
simmering of what she felt. No longer furious, but now defeated.
She continued to keep her back to the cave, unwilling for
whatever reason to show her face. She smells his tears.
"Funny you should ask that. Because I could ask you the very
same exact thing. I have tried to be honest with you.
Forthright. But you choose what you will and will not hear. As
if not hearing makes it not exist." A silence fell, broken only
by a barely audible sniffle.
"I told you what I was. I told you where I came from. I thought
you would understand how it would shape my viewpoint of these
things you're getting jealous over. But you never actually
thought about it." She said, as her head lowered.
"Your jealousy is a human emotion. And I'm not human. Your
vision of things is human. Mortal. One man, one woman. 'Til
death do you part. The wedding vows you want to say are mortal
things. I would give you all of that, in as much as I can. But
it's like you want me to be this human woman.
You want me to feel that jealousy, that envy, that possession. I
can't. I would not do that to you. Because the other sides of
those things are distrust and greed. I love you. I trust you.
That is enough for me." Her shoulders slumped. The only thing
that could run through her mind was, "Perhaps you should have
sought a mortal. You wouldn't be so unhappy now. She would
understand beyond an academic point of view."
#Post#: 27439--------------------------------------------------
Re: love kills slowly. [8/16. sunset. private]
By: haro masamune Date: August 21, 2012, 1:36 am
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haro was lost. is he wrong? is he an idiot... but... human
emotion...shes never felt it... she wont understand... but are
humans petty... are they wrong?... seek a human... but he loves
her... he wouldnt feel jealousy if he didnt. jealous...human
emotions. human this human that... he wants her to understand...
he loves her as she is... is he what should change? is being
human wrong? are his emotions wrong? should he not feel these
emotions? these HUMAN emotions. human... human... haro bit his
thumb again. she could smell blood, and more tears, but he
couldt speak. couldnt say a word. too much in his head. he hated
every thought. hated himself. hated his emotions. but are they
so wrong...?
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Re: love kills slowly. [8/16. sunset. private]
By: Kaya Mitsume Date: August 21, 2012, 1:53 am
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Shaking her head as if she were punch drunk, he might have
almost sworn that his mate had heard all of that. She lifted her
hands to her head, and his suspicions got stronger. Did she hear
that?
She sat down hard, her forehead on her hand. Yup, little doubt,
heard every single word. That was a spew and a half. She seems
to be trying to pick where to start with what she had to say.
But first, she really needed to make her way back to him.
And so she crawled, because standing wasn't a good idea at that
point. She came closer, and the first thing she did was to
literally take his thumb from him, bite her own lip, catch the
blood on her tongue and seal the wound on his thumb with it.
That hand, she keeps.
Beyond that she plopped herself gracelessly down in front of
him, looked him straight in the eye, and told him one thing.
"Stoppit." She then took a breath, blowing it out slowly.
"You're not wrong. You're very human. And there's nothing wrong
with it. Other than an expectation that I would think, feel, or
do necessarily the way you do. Your humanity is what drew me.
I do not want you to change. Only realize that expecting me to
act different than I am is as unrealistic as if I expected you
to understand what being immortal is like. The thing that I can
ask you to heed is this: Hear my intent, my emotion, before
judging an action of mine." She took a breath through her nose,
blowing it out her mouth.
"In this case, you think that we were playing inappropriately.
You think it was less than innocent. It was not. My intent, my
emotion, was pure. At no time, did I think of being disloyal to
you. Now, with hearing that, will you explain why it still
upsets you?" She said quietly, attempting very much to
understand.
#Post#: 27446--------------------------------------------------
Re: love kills slowly. [8/16. sunset. private]
By: haro masamune Date: August 21, 2012, 2:25 am
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he sat quietly for awhile. he still couldnt talk... at length he
finaly opened his mouth. "because im human... because i have
human feelings and human thoughts... because whatever your
intention.... your view of what you did is... different from
mine. because i ... i..." he sighed. "i dont know..."
#Post#: 27450--------------------------------------------------
Re: love kills slowly. [8/16. sunset. private]
By: Kaya Mitsume Date: August 21, 2012, 3:13 am
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She shook her head slightly. She had no idea what to do with
this. They were going in circles. Neither was right or wrong,
but both were sure their way was the better way. A line furrowed
the area between Kaya's brows.
She looked down at the hand she cradled, and gave a quiet sigh.
More and more, it seemed like there was no way to solve this.
And she didn't know how to get whatever had been lost back. Lost
trust via innocent mistake. And she couldn't fix what was
broken.
Once again, her shoulders slumped slightly, her head lowering.
Face hidden in the shadows, Kaya let the silent tears run down
her face.
#Post#: 27455--------------------------------------------------
Re: love kills slowly. [8/16. sunset. private]
By: haro masamune Date: August 21, 2012, 4:03 am
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before the tears can drop, he has her in an embrace. tears rain
from his eyes. he holds her tight, his heart trembling in his
chest. "no more... let me... just let this go... it hurt
before.... but this hurts more..."
#Post#: 27466--------------------------------------------------
Re: love kills slowly. [8/16. sunset. private]
By: Kaya Mitsume Date: August 21, 2012, 4:20 pm
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She let herself be gathered to him, turning her face into his
neck. She took a deep breath, and they sat in silence. This had
all been too close. Something, somehow, this needed to be
solved. Lately, it had only hurt Miles and herself. Now, it was
beginning to spill over and harm Haro. It needed to stop. Now.
She murmured against his skin. "I'm so sorry this is touching
you, as well. I hoped it wouldn't. But they're determined to fix
it. I won't let them unweave the choice I made with you, they
won't unweave their curse, and they can't unweave my mother's
magick.
They don't like this, so they offered to help Miles forget. Take
all the memories away from him. They brought us to the Halls in
our dreams, after they'd sent him a dream that would hurt him.
They did it on purpose. And they took his memories of me.
But, they aren't Mnemosyne. It's not absolute. He found himself
remembering me, I think partially because my mother and I ended
up here, together. Mama came to see me. Caused a bit of chaos
while she was here." She shifted her head against his shoulder,
shaking it slightly. It still irked her to no end to remember
that.
"He started remembering more and more, but not all of it. It was
painful to have him forget me. But I wanted him to try and be
happy with someone else. The way I'm happy with you. It came
back, all of it, and today was he and I talking about it all.
He understands, and at this point, seems to have realized that
nothing has changed. He, like you now, didn't understand what I
meant when I said the Fates had made sure of it. If I tried to
go past mere affection, it would hurt. If I were unfaithful, it
would kill me. Sever my thread, kill me.
That's what the other gods look down on me for. My thread is
woven, in it's way. It's the only normal way I can be killed.
Any other sort, you'd have to have the tools to kill a god, same
as the rest." He'd just been given the secret to her mortality.
Only he knew exactly that. No one else, other than the triad
that had woven it that way, knew of that. It was speaking of
just how far she trusted him.
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