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~autumn.rising~
DIR By: ~autumn.rising~
Date: July 20, 2014, 2:18 am
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have finally realized the best labels to describe me...
I am a contradiction and a conundrum!
Try to define me if you can, I will surely prove you wrong :-}
Trying to define yourself is like trying to bite your own teeth.
-Alan Watts
Okay, but my guess is that I need to do a little better in
describing who I am here.
A number of years ago I got into a relationship with a guy that
was unlike any guy I had ever dated. Some might have called him
a controlling asshole, but at the time I loved just that about
him. ZTO me He was “old fashioned, and all MAN”. In all my past
relationships I had been the “boss”, the breadwinner, the alpha,
the problem solver, the caretaker, the nurturer, the decision
maker, etc. even at a young age I was known for my don’t mess
with me strong personality. I had to be that way, I grew up on
the streets of California. But back to this relationship, well,
it was way different than any failed one I had been in before,
including two failed marriages. He had rules he demanded I
follow, and eeeks when I didn’t he , omg! Punished me!
Okay, I know shock.. but anyhoo, so in the end the relationship
didn’t work because he got introduced to the new “love of his
life” and that meant a very bad end for me. That new love was
crack cocaine and in the end I had lost EVERYTHING, my home, my
car, my friends, my business (I owned my own business in the
beauty industry) and even my safety. Yes, I lost my safety the
day he came home from a crack binge, raped me brutally, begged
me to help him escape the drug dealers currently on the way to
where we were to kill him, and then beat the shit out of me when
I said no I was leaving. Sorry, sad details I know but for some
it will answer some questions about me.
I was forced to go underground and relocate by the DA. At which
point I did some serious soul searching and realized that what
had worked SO well for me with Him was his domination. Once I
figured that out I started my research and found my way into
online BDSM chatrooms. I started to r/p, and learn and explore
submission. I found a home and I found me. This transferred to
my seeking in r/t and finding a “teacher” in the BDSM and D/s
lifestyle. I have now been active in the lifestyle for almost 6
years. I co-lead a group in my local community and am an active
member throughout central Florida. I am in a r/t D/s
relationship and a member of a poly family.
Family Tree:
Daddy and me = primary relationship (we live together 24/7)
Daddy, me have Brat, our girlfriend (lives less than 5 miles
away and her and her kid have place in our home)
Daddy, me and Brat also have Mommie. (lives completely at
separate residence)
I am a full time graduate student an lead a busy life.
I am a submissive. I am also a masochist and a “little”. I also
r/p as a Neko in SL (half cat half girl)
If you do not like, relate to, or have a problem with “littles”,
don’t bother dealing with me. My little is very present when I
am online.
I am mischievous and playful. I am also extremely selective when
it comes to sexual play, despite me being a total tease. Yes, I
admit it, I LOVE to be a tease. That does not mean I don’t
please when I feel right in doing so, it just means only a
special few get that far. I am NOT a princess who thinks my
submission should be placed upon a pedastel, that my “gift” of
submission should be so thoroughly honored and cherished that it
is not I the submissive who is kissing boots but the Dom/me who
should be licking mine. Umm NO! I believe fully in the dynamic
being a power EXCHANGE. I honor the gift of domination just as
firmly as I want to have my submission honored. I give respect
and I ask for respect in return. I believe in the Old ways of
respect, safety, integrity, and honesty. I believe in offering
the proper protocol, but I also believe that we are all here to
enjoy ourselves and need to remember that what we enjoy is
subjective and diverse.
I came to a determination about my room role today *smirks*
I think I am like a fluffer in porn, lmao. I tease taunt and
turn-on... then Ya Aall go off and fuck like pros! At least
until I find the perfect lead role *shrugs softly*
So here I am, OW’s chatterbox, mischief maker, and FLUFFER!
Otherwise known as ~autumn.rising~
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Re: ~autumn.rising~
DIR By: Qnightstorm
Date: July 20, 2014, 12:47 pm
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and you are such a joy to have around sweetness -smiles
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