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#Post#: 313--------------------------------------------------
Nothing in particular
DIR By: firestar
Date: March 17, 2014, 9:13 am
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So here i sit, about a week left. Packing, laundry, the bank and
the car still left... well the car can't be done til next week,
so i can drive to my job site. Pretty soon, i will not be an
Ohioian anymore, my car will be owned by someone else, and i
will be starting over in a completely new area. Its sad really,
i have been raised in this area for most of my life, and after
all the time i put into it, it still didn't work, and i am
leaving it again, like back in 1998, when i moved to Cleveland,
and moved a few more times after that-- before coming back, for
what i thought to stay. i started college in Cleveland, and
started again here, and graduated here, high school and college,
so had come full circle. i thought well, graduating with honors,
it should be only up hill from here. That was not the case
either, all that work for nothing really. More time invested for
nothing. So, maybe i shouldn't give a shit that i am leaving
this place here. i dunno, feels like i am leaving my life here
that i have known for most of it. i knew the area, i knew
people..i could drive around and not usually get lost, well not
that many times anyways. i know Daddy and Kay are gonna have a
rough day today probably, i just hope ana is watching over them,
so its not too bad for Them. Hmm.. maybe it will be like i died
and reincarnated or something, but if that was the case i would
wanna come back without the seizures and diabetes at least, and
well maybe some other stuff. Shit, them seizures, screws up a
lot of shit. i am afraid to live alone, to ride a bike.. and
sometimes wishing i didn't drive the car...but i kinda like that
independence...how competent am i really now? i don't know.
Could i handle grad school one day, i dunno that either. Even
then, who is to say anyone would hire me with the seizures
anyways..prolly just be a liability or health risk. Shit, maybe
i am just a liability period.
#Post#: 314--------------------------------------------------
Re: Nothing in particular
DIR By: Deviant~Slut
Date: March 17, 2014, 9:28 am
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No one said it was going to be easy My girl, but your family
loves you very much. I loved this right up to the end where you
started to sound like Wray. Don't make Me put My boot up your
ass girl. I want My "rock" back.
hugs you tight
#Post#: 315--------------------------------------------------
Re: Nothing in particular
DIR By: firestar
Date: March 17, 2014, 10:06 am
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swallows hard, trying to choke back more tears. i'm sorry. i
know, i have a great family, who i love very much as well...i
have the best family in the world. Your rocks gonna come
skipping across the river soon, so be ready!
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