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Demon Problem
DIR By: Beyond Reflection
Date: June 24, 2016, 12:33 pm
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Dear Jed,
I have got a big one hindering my progress. I have a few hints
where it came from. Maybe I can beat it when I quit smoking. Has
been there for a few years I guess.
It can be that this is part of my twinbrother whom "I helped
surviving when born. We were early, so the mother was gone in
another room for two weeks. As it comes down to success or woman
or friendship, anything... it interferes silently. I want to see
its **** face or look into the mirror.. maybe.
I ve had it all gone, but with the last love - parts came back,
tried to play a role, forced to put on the old shoes. Guess I am
going too hard on myself - wich is ridiculess. Guess its me whos
always against me. My bro my pap my mum, dont realy matter, or
maybe they do a little since I was getting back to my old self
somehow, partly.
It can be a real one aswell. Once I took some magic mushrooms,
just a half, if I remember clearly there was a demon and made me
suffer and rage and I struggled getting it out. A medium told me
few days ago its a strong one. I want to get rid of. Its anger,
when I am angry at it it gets food, wich causes me to buy tabak,
wich causes me to play hide and seek, battles, ups and downs,
hairs on my breast. pain in the ass. Maybe I am living in an old
ghost house.
Theres a realy special woman and it seems we share a dreamscape
together. Seems like the loose ends get tied up. Want to make
something, the best out of me. It seems to hinder the
relationship. I know I ve planed to wake up, dont know when, 'd
be good to have something to lean on first, an old friend once
said: finish shool or you end as noone left with nothing. Well
thats been done I guess since I failed it all last year. Ways
are many, I need to go mine. There are things I cannot change,
like not beeing okay with the ego who was created and hated
enough to kill itself.
Gues inside the dreamstate would be nice, but I also remember
how it felt like to be fully awake.
Youre invisible man! Thank you! :)
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Re: Demon Problem
DIR By: Jed McKenna
Date: June 24, 2016, 3:53 pm
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Dear BR:
Thanks for sharing that.
Love ya, Jed.
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