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A not so clean landing...
By: chrisg Date: April 2, 2021, 4:06 pm
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Hi Jed,
I usually don't concern myself with where I am on the map to T/R
but I actually think some input from someone who knows the
territory like yourself might prove to be helpful for me.
Here's some context to where I am:
I took the first step a couple years ago, and definitely went
through the most intense portion of the 'mountain is not a
mountain' phase, and am currently in the 'mountain is a mountain
again' phase, but still a little bit in the 'mountain is not a
mountain' phase still from time to time, but less so every
day...this is why it is confusing. I have little doubt that
this will and ill end up settled at T/R, but am curious how you
would categorize this phenomenon. To give you a little more
information as to where I am: I had an experience a few months
ago of meeting someone who is also T/R, I have never had this
happen before and didn't expect it, but it was clear as soon as
we looked at eachother that we were both out of the amusement
park and rare human beings. We merged and a had a monologue in
away that neither of us could do with anyone else. I, however,
was still bothered and effected by fear. He could notice it
too, he would say "you're here already what are you still scared
of?" To which I couldnt really reply. the project feels mostly
complete but there's some fear/fear of no self still left. And I
get the sense that it isnt completely complete until this is
flushed out. So the confusion is I am T/R but not completely.
What is this stage and how would you categorize it?
Thank you so much,
Chris
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Re: A not so clean landing...
By: Jed McKenna Date: April 3, 2021, 5:23 am
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Hi Chris:
Got it. Thanks for sharing so elloquently. As you know this all
starts with one form or another of searching. It can be deep and
take a long time. Searching itself becomes a habit. Once
dropped, it remains around, a little like an echo in an empty
canyon. You habit of seeking it makes it challenging when it
comes time for 'it' to come to 'you'. Of course, nothing goes
anywhere, I am just using conventional languaging to try and
communicate.
At some stage, a rather pivotal one, you have to stop trying....
give up the ghost and let go of all trying. You are at that
stage. Time to let the Blue Bird of Happiness crap on your
birthday cake. As you probably know, that can't be made to
happen. All you can do now is let it happen. Good luck and write
me anytime.
I would also recommend that to absolutely everything that
arising in your world, interal or external, you gently repeat
the refrain: "Thank you, but you're not IT''. When it is IT,
there will be an unshakeable knowing that it was there all the
time and YOU are IT.
Until such time, much love and best wishes,
Jed.
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