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Not able to consistently ask myself "What am I?"
By: feanor Date: March 4, 2021, 1:49 pm
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Hi Jed,
I have finally mustered the courage to set up my own member
topic. Many of my autolysis attempts get stuck at "I am". Yes I
know I am, because I get this intuitive sense from within. Then
I go the Ramanna way of consistently asking myself "Who/ what is
this I?" I start off enthusiastically every day, but forget all
about this question by afternoon. The few times I ponder on
"What is this I?", it results in a few seconds of silence.
I also tried your other approach. To every thought/ event, ask
"is this real/ true?" I forget this question within a few
attempts too.
What do I do? Am I lazy/ too hard on myself/ impatient? How do I
know if I am making progress?
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Re: Not able to consistently ask myself "What am I?"
By: Jed McKenna Date: March 4, 2021, 10:42 pm
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Welcome to the forum, and feel free to ask me anything.... well,
anything related to the subject matter of the forum, i.e., YOU.
You need to keep in mind two things:
1.) Maya is a loveable b(fill in the missing letters) t, and she
is almost infinitely clever at distracting you.
2.) You didn't bury your real 'Self' under an imanginary 'you'
during a coffee break and you are not going to uncover the real
you over a lunch break.
Be patient and gentle with yourself, baby step first and here is
a great teacher (well, everyone is a 'great teacher' if you are
ready).
Much love, Jed.
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Re: Not able to consistently ask myself "What am I?"
By: feanor Date: March 4, 2021, 11:37 pm
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Thank you for the encouragement. I will keep chipping away at
this "I" until there is a breakthrough. I won't go hunting for
another technique, I realize that was Maya distracting me.
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Re: Not able to consistently ask myself "What am I?"
By: Jed McKenna Date: March 5, 2021, 1:32 am
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Excellent my friend....
Love ya, Jed.
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Re: Not able to consistently ask myself "What am I?"
By: feanor Date: March 17, 2021, 9:54 am
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Hi Jed, as I keep asking the question "What am I?", I find
myself in silent awareness, longer and often. Thank you!
I have been hacking away at any questions that arise, by
comparing the waking state with my dream state. Could you please
help me reconcile the below about the two states:
1. I (as the dreamer and not the character in the dream) have a
choice of what to dream (e.g. lucid dreaming). I also have a
preference of what I want to dream (e.g. no nightmares please).
I also find myself briefly affected by the dream when I wake up
(e.g. "Phew that was a scary dream").
2. But you have said that Awareness has no choice of what it's
aware of and no preference. Awareness is also unaffected by
anything that happens in the waking state.
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Re: Not able to consistently ask myself "What am I?"
By: Jed McKenna Date: March 18, 2021, 1:02 am
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Hi there:
Aw...yes, confusion. Seems like almost everyone in the world
hates and avoids it. I love, because it always precedes
learing... simply yin to yang and yang to yin.
So, let me settle your confusion, but probably only temporarily.
You are confusing Truth with Awareness. Awareness is not Truth,
it's like a doorway or facet of Truth. Imagine Truth is the
sparkling diamond, and just one of it's polished facets is
Awareness. It's a requisite quality of the diamond and makes it
sparkle, but it isn't the diamond. Try giving your loved one
sparkling facet... you can't do that. You need the whole diamond
for the beauty of it.
Now, to get more confused... please.
Love ya, Jed
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Re: Not able to consistently ask myself "What am I?"
By: feanor Date: March 18, 2021, 2:24 am
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Your answer opens the pandora's box for me. How do I discover
the whole truth and not be stuck in facets? If awareness is just
a facet, its a half-truth in the same league as love,
meditation, bliss or even Maya. The question "What am I" kept
leading me to the answer: Awareness. Could it be that Awareness
is the same Maya circus with a different label?
My worry is summarized by the quote from your Damnedest book:
"That's the sort of pathetic, half-assed approach that is
absolutely certain to keep you confined to your current state.
That's the sort of approach that everyone takes and that's why
they fail."
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Re: Not able to consistently ask myself "What am I?"
By: Jed McKenna Date: March 18, 2021, 8:28 am
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.... still holds true in my experience...
Love ya, Jed
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Re: Not able to consistently ask myself "What am I?"
By: feanor Date: May 9, 2021, 1:47 am
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Hi Jed,
Had a question about how to do autolysis. I have understood that
the only thing I know for certain is "I am". So now, what do I
write in autolysis, when "I am" is the only true statement?
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Re: Not able to consistently ask myself "What am I?"
By: Jed McKenna Date: May 9, 2021, 6:35 am
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Thanks for your post. Now, tell me, how do you know 'you are'?
Sounds like a stupid question, but you must be prepared to
questions EVERYTHING, so, how do you know?
In 5,000 words or less.
Much love, Jed.
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