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Student's drug experience report....
By: Jed McKenna Date: February 9, 2020, 6:47 am
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Iboga is one 'drug' what I feel can be very productive in a
learning sense. I have seen and experience such results. Please
feel free to share yours is you want to.
Hi Jed,
I did another iboga session, yesterday evening. This time the
experience was just everything I intended to get out of this
session and way way, so much more.
It was a one day session with the intention to go deep in one
go, and I managed to take a lot of iboga. Spread over 13 rounds
in 10 hours.
The start was a bit of low level ego scattered thoughts, not
busy at all, quite peaceful.
But halfway the session I managed to see it. Falling into place.
How in this dreamworld me, you, the universum are all one. I saw
it first as images of various people connected and then to
myself and felt it, really felt it instead of just thinking it
conceptually.
All this stuff that I learned from your books, but only
understood conceptually now feeling like it connects and falls
into place in other places.
I know, this was with iboga, so not abiding. Don't stop here
(student's name), go further and further. But I know that this
is the biggest leap I've made ever, even though time does not
exist, haha.
I saw with my own eyes why it is so that we must check if what
we desire is in line with the universe when we are manifesting
our desires.
Previously I thought "so why can't I just desire what I want,
me?". But of course everything I want must be in line with the
universe! I am the universe, so how can it be otherwise? Why
didn't I see this before, it is so obvious!
Before the session the (teacher) who gave the ceremony told me
how thoughts in our brains always come after the actions. Not
before. That our actions are driven by impulse.
I saw how this falls into place with your example in ACIM (A
Course in Manifesting) of quantum computers in consciousness and
binary computers in mind. The real future is created by the
quantum computers, our mind just creates a story of it
afterwards and believes that me or you did it.
That's so different from how I saw it before and it changes
everything. Because if everything was like binary computers, the
future is fixed. Because binary computers are programmed and
predictable.
With quantum computers the future cannot be predicted, it
changes all the time. Well actually it doesn't exist in the
first place, there is no future.
Everything is so relative and absolutely meaningless if you see
it in the big picture. All this fuss about winning the lottery,
or getting a new car or grief about something. Why?
If you zoom out, in 2.5 billion years the earth will no longer
exist - well that's what these crazy scientists say, but what do
they know. But Everything does come and go in this dreamworld,
so also the earth. Universes may come and go. How fantastic this
is and I picture how complete universes come into existence and
disappear.
I pictured jokingly how in 2.5 billion years the earth has
disappeared and one (whoever they are) will say (low commentary
voice): "Well that's a shame that the earth has disappeared, but
so good that ''I'' won the lottery that day in 2020" - hahaha. I
couldn't help laughing. What's the meaning? Nothing has meaning.
What I big joke.
Jed - numerous times during the session I was laughing, because
it's so funny when you look at it this way.
So what's really important? Nothing is. Absolutely nothing.You
get born and you die and in the meantime you try to make the
most of it.
I thought about how time is space, space is time, no, time is
space in motion. Time and space are required for motion. Matter
is energy in motion, so you need time and space for matter. So
what was first, time or matter. How did this all start, I try to
picture it. Why am I thinking all this, it's not getting
anywhere and why would it matter?
Haha, who cares, time and matter don't exist anyway.
So is the universe finite or infinite? If consciousness is
infinite would it allow a finite universe in appearance? What
does it matter? The universe is an illusion and an illusion
would even fit in the fist of your hand.
I see visions of most beautiful patterns coming towards me. Is
all this I'm seeing coming from outside, from the universe,
spirits, or from within me. Projections of my own thoughts? But
thoughts create things, so everything is thoughts, everything.
And I AM the universe, so what does it matter?
Words can't describe all this. Why do we call this a table? What
does it say? No 2 tables are exactly the same and in this
dreamworld it's all integrated in one universe and part of
consciousness. So why bother. Nothing can describe this.
I got up at 7:30 this morning and didn't feel sick the way I did
last time. I've been feeling good all day, not ecstatic, but at
ease I guess is the best description, with everything,
absolutely everything.
I tried to write everything down how I experienced it directly,
without the afterthoughts that I'm having now. Because I already
feel that my mind is trying to explain things in its own way and
dilute it. I want to have the pure experience on paper. Even
though words cannot explain this. But this is the best I can do.
It's 19:00 now. Going to let this sink in further and hopefully
try to get some sleep tonight.
I'm so unbelievably grateful for your books and your support
Jed. I can't thank you enough.
Cheers,
(Jed: Thank you for sharing your experience.)
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Re: Student's drug experience report....
By: Smiling Date: February 9, 2020, 7:25 pm
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Hi Jed,
This is the first time I heard about Iboga. It reminds me of
Ayahuasca. I have only heard about it. It is said to have the
'oneness' effect, too. Do you know anything about it?
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Re: Student's drug experience report....
By: Jed McKenna Date: February 9, 2020, 11:50 pm
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Hi Dear:
Please write me privately and we can go a little deeper into the
topic.
Trust you are well and staying healthy (ahem... )
Love ya, Jed.
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Re: Student's drug experience report....
By: Death_by_SallyD Date: February 14, 2020, 12:48 pm
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:D Utmost respect.......
For entheogenic Grand-Dad, Pappy Iboga. :)
Expansive......wizened......exacting......burgeoning with
knowledge which spreads cleanly through the universe, arms
spread wide.....the fragile egg of the presuppositional mind
tapped on the vertex, shattered and then opened to make room for
all that inflood of knowledge.
Respect!
But....something else to consider, in terms of direct
experiential lessons which make a lasting, lifelong, pivotal
impact. The kind which utterly transforms.
There is nothing quite like the existential horror(exhilaration)
of being ripped tooth and nail.....cell from
cell....mitochondria from endoplasmic reticulum....molecule from
molecule.....from one's presumed sense of form and
familiarity...from one's sense of context and cognition. The
sheer beauty of being stripped down to one's abstract
core.....down to the barest quantum particle of the singularity
of one's most minimum point of perceptual perspective to be
cast, like a bit of fluff around a poplar seed, into the pranic
tides of the sea of awareness to land god knows where....to
reside for god knows how long....as god knows what.
For that....you need a merciless witch. Who loves only the
most remote, primordial/fetal aspect of those she ministers to.
A witch who, in her own words, is the Embodiment of the
Abstract. Her name is Sally D! The Diviner's Sage. The
Shepherdess.
Salvia Divinorum :)
Disclaimer time. If one goes to her with a tone of smug
self-certainty.....clinging to one's sense of capacity for
containment of knowledge....expecting to come back from her
sponsored explorations with something to lecture others about
"this" and "that" about "the way things are" ....the one might
be in for a very unpleasant experience. Impression is, from my
experience, that she abhors human conceit...and is passionate
about reducing it to smoking ash! If, however....one can go to
her with complete and total humility and utter abandon.....not
the kind of humility that grovels before a deity. But the kind
of humility that inwardly acknowledges the possibility for
sheer diversity of perceived experience on every level....the
kind that lets go completely. Then the sweetness and artfulness
and complete and total awe of what she has to offer becomes
available. She lets one peer through the keyhole into that vast
expanse of irradiating, fractalizing potential for direct
experience as a naked perceiver.
Forgive my shameless gushing. I've been crushing on her for
years now!
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Re: Student's drug experience report....
By: Jed McKenna Date: February 16, 2020, 1:08 am
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The whole of the law is, ''Crush as thou wilt''.
Love ya, Jed
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