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H/A and career prospects
DIR By: aleksg
Date: October 3, 2018, 10:03 am
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Hi Jed
Been lurking for few days (reading books for few months).
I'm working to H/A because I'm not serious enough for T/R.
My questions regarding H/A:
1. Is H/A achievable via S/A alone or does the Online Ashram
help with it?
2. What are signals that I'm moving towards H/A?
3. If S/A (or self inquiry as explained by forum member Frits)
is enough, how will H/A impact career (I work in sales. Does H/A
clarity lead to non spiritual skills becoming better)?
Apologies if materialistic.
Tnx for any replies.
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Re: H/A and career prospects
DIR By: Jed McKenna
Date: October 3, 2018, 11:47 pm
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Hi there,
Good questions. H/A is achievable by many means, however, some
are slow and others are very slow.
How effectively and efficiently can you let go of your past
hurts, pains, experiences? I mean really release them? This
clearing up of the past is vital to H/A. Your past is creating
all your problems via memories, engrams, memes and whatever. The
weird things is they are not really yours, but you take them as
yours and (almost always) cling to them for dear life.
Regarding how will you know you are progressing along the
pathway to H/A, there are many indicators but probably the most
obvious one is you will become aware that you are responding to
events and people differently... and many time you will find you
are not reacting to the minor jabs and pokes of life.
You career with, in almost every case, get better because you
will be freer to respond in a wider variety of ways AND, if you
career is not appropriate for you then change will be easier and
considerably smoother.
The Nav Series has very specific and focused mechanism for
dealing with the impediments to H/A. It is very efficient. Here
is a collection of some email responses from students. Obviously
any identifiers have been removed. I trust this assists you a
little.
Talk later,
love ya, Jed.
There are no more questions. All is said, and all is done. This
wonderful ordinariness of being is far more simple than complex
questions and they only distract. I feel touched and moved but
it cannot be expressed in words. All is well.
I feel to express my deepest gratitude and love for your
patience and wisdom. This has truly been a transforming journey,
finally I met a True guy :).
If the ”divine accident” is going to happen fully remains to be
seen, but now I feel that this journey is going to be continued
alone. There is nothing you can give me anymore because the
receiver is false. Tears of joy are falling as i write this. We
haven`t met in person, but I think I already know you so it is
not needed. Maybe I`ll write you sometime and who knows maybe we
even meet some day but that is of no importance of course.
Thank you, Thank you, Thank you…
Thanks for Module Two.
Very interesting read. It is amazing, I feel blur blur...I am
lost of words.
Re the questions I asked earlier, no need for answer... I jumped
ahead of the what is (Maya/ego intervention), or if I did not
understand, SO WHAT?
There is quite a lot to contemplate in this module. I
understand that I can do some simultaneously and some I have to
do one after the other.
Hope I will feel more clear the next time I write.
A year ago when I read in the module about losing all fear of
the mind
and memories and thoughts that spontaneously cause grief
and about the certainty that there's nothing I can't handle
this seemed impossible. Well it's happening now.
This is an example how I know the Nav Series work.
You rock Jed. That's sexy.
… In my spare time I am taking your advice and going
back….slowly, slowly, slowly …through the nav materials. And
yes, there is a shitload in there to contemplate……missed steps,
i’m finding missed steps…..or to be more accurate, i’m spiraling
back on steps and finding deeper application. Like that ‘Hate
your Family or all labels’ bit in Module three. That’s actually
HUGE. So the SS is out setting up roadblocks to catch those
little vermin. Ugh…disgusting creatures. How have we allowed
them to live among us for so long?
Sadly they do run the entertainment industry in here. My sense
of humor seems a little off lately…..borderline inappropriate.
NO! that’s always been true.
Thanks for this. I hear a powerful message here...
I don't know what to write here except that I see myself
applying some of the releases and learning to let go of control,
and awareness within my daily life. To say it simply, I am less
busy-body. I am sure it will be life changing.
It's a big relief to know that I can just Be.
What a trip!! You are like a Zen Master with his stick, only
your 'stick' is in the form of words. I never really figure out
why a Zen Master needed to hit his disciples. Now I do, and I
need it too, whenever I go astray, away from the Now.
There seems to be a trend here. Each time I get a plus from
you, she goes on a Maya/ego trip!
She was looking at her thoughts and reacted, instead of watching
that which is watching, the stillness within (S/P). This is
quite a challenge. I have a disease called 'forgetfulness'.
I’m hoping you remember me and I can continue on with the Nav
Series, since I’ve been AWOL the last few months. The first two
modules were actually amazing, when doing the importances thing
people would transform into life-like mannequins right away,
then the emotion and belief tornado, how could I have not seen
that, that’s about the time a scatter bomb went off in my head
and I tried to do all the things that have worked in the past,
at once, S/A, death awareness, manifesting are a few fav’s, then
... just good ol’ confusion.
I finished the additional recorded contemplations. The book is
still left. I`ll get to it soon.
This has truly been a ride one might say. Thank you, is a mild
and insufficient expression, but that is all I have when it
comes to words.
I`m so **** grateful that I feel like crying. You have been the
biggest **** I have ever met. A lovable, clever, genius, the
most helpful ****, so this is a complement.
Thanks for this last module.
Wow, you saved the best for last. I am lost for words...
Talk later,
I have this strange feeling... Now I know why I feel so
'uneasy' after reading this module and all the previous modules.
By now you have destroyed my whole structures or concepts of
what I thought of as my life...belief systems, etc, etc... I
don't know how to say this.. but I feel being destroyed... haha
Jed, you are a destroyer! And you have done it so subtly.
Not only my life is all about responding to the stories in my
head, my whole physical body (hand/arm/leg/head/torso) is also
responding to my stories. It all happens automatically,
although at times it may be survival instinct.
The S/P and the "I am" are one in the same...cheeky move Jed , I
like it of course they are. I had suspicious the S/P was the
jumping off point to something more...or less :-). When I
contemplate 'I am" I definitely notice it, warm blanket is a
good analogy, its a very small/minor noticeable change with
major consequences, that about the best way I describe it. The
longer I dwell there the sensation get greater, I was trying out
recently for extended periods...at times it almost gets too
much, causes lots of tears, and a sense of being to much or
overflowing? Question Jed, should I begin to dwell/stay in "I
am" for longer and longer periods? Is "I am" like the
importance's? Can I build up to ve a reflex like a muscle? The
more I do it the easier it is to access, or so it feels. Should
I be in the "I am" space when directing questions at myself or
when doing spiritual autolysis?
Been quite enjoying the magic. Can I say pretty awesome to just
keep staying with the taste of awareness most of the time.
Stories catch me a few times a day but I see it often after a
few minutes or less that it is just drivel and chuckle to
myself.
Seems not worth (not possible) to speak to the normies/zombies
about this. A big waste of energy. Not necessay. Serves no
purpose. Outward spewing of drivel (made up ****).
The freedom of seeing all these stories (not driving but in all
aspects of life)...is beautifully reliving and feels like a
clear step away from the wall of plato's cave. I was reading a
conversation with Ramana, where he suggested a technique when
confronted with any kind of thought, curiously asking "where is
are these occurring in = Me , as away to draw you back into "I
am" , I have been using this a lot over the last week and found
it to be really helpful, I also add the "releasing importance"
sensation to clear the thought completely. Also found it as a
away to maintain the "I am" sensation, with a little bit of "I
am" mantra, focused breathing is also similar. The "I am" or SP
come really easily now and on call, but maintaining it...I have
a suspicion that once that happens, your our of the cave and in
full time T/R. I say "full time" as part time truth appears to
be occurring now. But that's all suspicion assumption and a
waste in the end, so keep doing what apparently works and don't
believe anything appears to be a great mantra.
I could list a bunch of the benefits experienced, but I just say
"the ultimate medicine" is perfect way to describe it. No "self"
or "you" and only capacity within consciousness = the ability to
reside in no dual awareness. Looking forward to the next module.
I was doing C/I R/I, then the “advanced” version of that- can’t
remember how you call it. I was feeling the sensations that
woudl come w/ that. and how i’d find importance in that too,
which got me more curious about importances.
and then i had the notion to see all thoughts and ideas as
versions of importances, and with that came the notion to drop
them as they showed up. (So some idea of what shows up as
important and then immediately dropping the importance of them
(so dropping thoughts/ideas/etc). )
and then back to the sensations - and how importances would be
put there too. and if i “stayed” with the “relief” of dropping
sensations that was me making that relief important. which would
keep me locked into an “old” time and space. so to immdiately
drop the relief too, bc there is always something else “next” or
there.
so for awhile i dropped all thoughts, sensations , etc as soon
as they came and i had soooo muuchhhh energy running through my
system. it was pretty fun. very spacious and wide and deep and
just fun and free feeling.
I know the above sounds crazy, but I didn't exactly have a break
down even though I was freaked out. There was no explosion. Life
goes on. It doesn't seem like the first step, at least not what
I imagined it to be. But even though I don't know exactly what
to do I don't think I can fail at this. I'm already TR. TR is
what exists, how can failure even be possible? It's always here,
that which never changes, which is still, looking through these
eyes. Always here, at my fingertips! Let me say that again, with
exclamation points. It's always here!!!
So Who is letting it come and go? who is resisting? I and Maya
are one...and it's all this awakeness, so how about that for
being not clear! Many many many ways in every moment to
unenlighten self.
words are failing me here- the contradiction..
For example, even in that moment, my four year old daughter
wakes up and I immediately resist being interrupted. But if I
breathe, and open to that awakeness- it's there...no resistance,
doesn't matter if interrupted, no preference to do this or not
that.
The polarities exercise- awakeness, this spaciousness has no
polarities/ no preference. It just is, it's still here too, and
always moving, always changing, resisting, and has many
preferences. However, It is becoming less real and more flimsy.
Almost see through, wispy.
This feels extremely wordy to say something that is really so
simple...so thank you my friend.
Jezus ffing christ Jed... in the end i was convinced that the
search was just a mechanism to keep me away from my own lersonal
problems.. when i passed that station the fun started to happen.
I thought you where completely full of **** in the end... but
man... i can see now.. i can swim now, without floaters. I can
let the orchestra play.. life is working with me and im working
with life here. Thanks for showing this. You are awesome... and
not only you are.. i am awesome.. life is aweswome. Wo would
have thought... wanted to thank you personal even though in some
way that is compelete bs. Im seeing it...... i amm overwelmed by
a big fat wtf feeling... great things happening. A whole new
world is opening up..... thanks and wow!!
Have gone through countless faces, ideas: I am shame, I am pain,
I am love, I`m the one who resist... They lift up, I become them
and they are gone. Some maybe in seconds, some in minutes, some
take longer. A huge relief, breathing deeply, flashes of
freedom, grace and maybe something called love, and then the
next ones arises. This wouldn`t be possible to do while being
asleep. Maybe. Didn`t expect this. Thought done meant done. Not
the final act after. Dying one by one. Giving up.
I know Jed why this is so rare. There is no way there would be
diligent volunteers all over to do this. At this point I
wouldn`t even want anyone to do this. Feel deep compassion to
everyone going through this. Admiration. Respect.
Vanishing.... till there's nothing to be vanished. Seeing
through the 'further', Where could I possibly go?
What's left Is, Everything That Ever Was. An empty vessel, an
infinite capacity.
Words do not convey or conceive, and there is no need for it.
As if there no longer is a need to KNOW. It already is....The
search is over. It's impossible to go on searching from here.
Love you and thank you
I just really listened to Knock Knock 6 and heard it deeply for
the first time. Your invitation to let go of needing anything
and just be in the now shifted something in me. There is an
exquisite sense of freedom and peace in this moment for me from
embracing that invitation. In this moment, at least, I need
nothing and am everything.
With gratitude,
I knew this memory would be significant even before I began the
contemplation because it's one I've had for a while but still
manage to forget about every now and again. In the middle of the
actual contemplation, I realized for the first time how
significant it actually was to my character. I had to take a
moment to let it wash over me, of course it was pretty
emotional, and when it was done I felt I had a better
understanding of it, specifically of some of the people
involved. This understanding led to a calmness, but surprisingly
I had a new-found resentment for the people involved in this
memory. This lasted for a few hours until the biggest surprise
of all happened, I realized that the resentment had slipped
away, that I didn't truly have it in me to hold onto it and that
it had quietly let itself out when I wasn't paying attention.
I guess I could describe it as having been humbling, not sure, I
just thought I should bring it up. I think that's all I have for
now. I can tell that I still have progress to make with this
contemplation but must admit I'm pleased with the experience I
had. Let me know what you think in terms of going on.
Between the age of 10 and 20 I was a competition swimmer which
is quite a strong identity with a lot of dedication and
discipline. After the age of 20 I didn't do any laps in the
swimming pool anymore. I was totally fed up with discipline and
dedication. The only thing I could make myself do was
freediving, nothing else and of course with less intensity.
Last week, 37 years later, I gave swimming a chance and just
started swimming laps in the pool and it was GOOD, I came back
to the pleasant memories from my past. It was super surprising.
After the swim I was just sitting in the sauna when memories
from my teenage started flowing strongly. I got so many
flashbacks of places and pools and also I could see my former
coach in front of me. So I just started working on the images
which was a very strong physical experience, I started burping
like hell.
After all this it was like coming back to something soft and
good within. It was like I had repressed so much good stuff
within just because I had got tired of discipline and training
swimming. I'm coming to peace with that particular phase of my
life. It's like a knot has been untied within. The peace I'm
feeling now is emptier and makes sense in a non sensical way.
This was a strong demonstration of what still needs to done with
certain pleasant/unpleasant memories of my life.
Thank you Jed
Jed this contemplation is powerful! To be fully with what arises
or gets triggered - in deep curiosity - WITHOUT getting caught
in the context (story/narrative) is revelatory for me. Thank
you.
I don’t feel so bad anymore. Probably I am going to dream about
something easier now even though I won’t believe it. Damn, this
whole time I was just imagining my life the way everyone else
told me it was. That’s the whole game, stuck in a game not
knowing it’s a game.
Now something actually makes sense, there was never any “life”
to be made, to create, to accomplish nothing of the kind. It
was all just playing the role, whatever role you got handed and
believing it was real. And the only way out of the role is to
see that it (me) was never real, that I’ve never actually “done”
anything.
If you sexually abuse a child it ends up with borderline
personality disorder for example. i suffered so much abuse...
but ci/ri is working and has worked, nav series has dramatically
improved my life. im starting to break in and deal with this
very early programming in my self. i assumed that i wasnt there
since i wasnt aware of it... so now im just wondering what else
is there in my subconscious.
#Post#: 35934--------------------------------------------------
Re: H/A and career prospects
DIR By: aleksg
Date: October 4, 2018, 4:38 am
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Thank you for the reply Jed
I've taken the appropriate action based on your reply (sent an
email with header "waiting list").
Best
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