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Re: When you say T/R is a kind of cellular knowing...
DIR By: guest1170
Date: December 7, 2017, 5:33 am
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I'll try autolysis now and stick with it. That exercise didn't
feel much different from meditation; this fact made me
unmotivated to continue doing it cuz I know from experience
meditation won't lead anywhere. Idk, maybe that's just an excuse
- I don't really know
Anyways, I am aware I need to discipline myself on one technique
if I want to go anywhere with this; posting on this forum or
having wishful thinking won't do... As I am an awful
procrastinator, I'll now cut out from my life every other kind
of discipline I'm trying to put on myself and use all my
"acting" energy for the pourpose of autolysis
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Re: When you say T/R is a kind of cellular knowing...
DIR By: Jed McKenna
Date: December 8, 2017, 3:00 am
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Your mind it tricking you.. making you jump around to avoid
facing it's ultimate demise. Take a small amount of time, just a
minute or five and focus for that amount of time. Get in the
habit and gently increase the time.
Love ya, Jed.
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Re: When you say T/R is a kind of cellular knowing...
DIR By: guest1170
Date: December 8, 2017, 3:21 am
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I did 49 minutes of autolysis today... U proud of me? (jk)
Well, I perceived I can never write anything true on that paper,
so, I thought to myself "What's the point of even doing this?";
then I remembered what you said about autolysis being a process
of elimination - You're not meant to succeed in writing
sometihng true.
I'll continue to do it; I guess one time or another the fun will
start to happen. I don't even care if I fall in Makyo or in the
"trap" of the siddhis - In fact, I want this to happen.
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Re: When you say T/R is a kind of cellular knowing...
DIR By: Jed McKenna
Date: December 8, 2017, 10:24 am
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Excellent, and I am delighted you listened to me. Now go for it.
Love ya, Jed
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Re: When you say T/R is a kind of cellular knowing...
DIR By: guest1170
Date: December 12, 2017, 12:28 pm
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If you think this post is too long, then please just read part
2.
Part 1:
I'm still doing autolysis. What has changed:
- Yesterday I felt like I lost the hability of "loving"
things(you know, that good feeling that happens in your chest);
today I woke up with it again.
- Yesterday I went for a long time without sleeping.
- I have the memory of feeling something akin to "ethernal" or
"divine" when waking up; the memory of it is very weak though. I
also feel disgusted about the fact that I felt "holyness"
because I hate such thing - It's just a mental feeling created
by this simian body when it is in front of something greater.
- Synchonocities.
- I still hate people/society. The hate and apathy has just
increased: before, when someone told me they were sick or told
me an sad story, I would desire good things for them mentally;
now, I don't care. Yesterday someone that I'm supposed to care
about became sick and went to the hospital; I was honest with
myself and thought it wouldn't matter if he/she also died; I
didn't care.
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Part 2:
So, anyways, Nisargadatta said when asked "Q: If time and space
are mere illusions and you are beyond, please tell me what is
the weather in New York. Is it hot or raining there?" :
"N: How can I tell you? Such things need special training. Or,
just travelling to New York. I may be quite certain that I am
beyond time and space, and yet unable to locate myself at will
at some point of time and space. I am not interested enough; I
see no purpose in undergoing a special Yogic training. I have
just heard of New York. To me it is a word. Why should I know
more than the word conveys? Every atom may be a universe, as
complex as ours. Must I know them all? I can -- if I train"
I am not interested in reaching H/A so that I can somehow become
more attractive to people due to reduced ego or whatever. I am
not interested, at least now, In receiving love from other
monkeys; I don't want to become Wayne Dyer 2.0. Since the start
I've been on this for "hedonistic" gains; I want to have as much
money as I want without doing anything, because I hate other
humans and I am allergic to anything that envolves group
working, licking balls of people higher in the working
hierarchy, developing a network of conections, etc. I also am
not altruistic. Not being able to do those things, It's pretty
hard for me to succeed in life in the "normal way".
I have been reading about those Indian guys that were able to
materialize gold and diamonds out of thin air... According to
your experiences, are such superpowers possible(considering the
right amount of training)?
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Re: When you say T/R is a kind of cellular knowing...
DIR By: Jed McKenna
Date: December 13, 2017, 2:08 am
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I would say it's quite possible, but not for you.
Never done it myself and am not the least bit interested in it.
I have created a mystical, magical, wondrous universe.
Triviality don't grab my attention.
Love ya, Jed.
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Re: When you say T/R is a kind of cellular knowing...
DIR By: guest1170
Date: December 13, 2017, 6:52 am
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The idols of our society are people like Cristiano Ronaldo and
Ariana Grande; that's what our youth aspires to become like;
We are born to rot in an office 40h/week for most part of our
lives - indeed, the BEST years of our lives; and that's if you
are lucky to not be a starving homeless;
Our worth in this society is measured by how much we have,
PERIOD;
Annd we can barely trust anyone, really...
To see all of this as a wondorous, mystical experience is just
beyond the imaginative capabilities of my mind.
I also think money is trivial, but the magic of this world has
been dead since long(if it even did exist); money is all that's
left on this dry, dead, wasteland.
#Post#: 33283--------------------------------------------------
Re: When you say T/R is a kind of cellular knowing...
DIR By: Jed McKenna
Date: December 13, 2017, 7:16 am
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Thank you for sharing an interesting perspective. Much of what
you express is concurrent with my experiences...
Yes, my perspective is beyond the ''imaginative capabilities of
the mind'' and THAT is my whole purpose and point. Give up mind,
give up imagination... and just be with what appears... and all
the time, be aware that it's all an amazing dream.. nothing more
or less.
From one perspective, that is madness, but from another, it's
the only kind of sanity that exists. The choice is (perhaps)
yours.
Don't give up, your persistence will be rewarded some day.
Love ya, Jed.
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Re: When you say T/R is a kind of cellular knowing...
DIR By: guest1170
Date: January 1, 2018, 1:23 pm
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I've been meditating for at least 1 hour/day for the past 17
days, sometimes, I would apply that "die for your desires and
fears" technique, trying to let go of everything, to the point I
could barely even feel my phisical body, let alone hold any
mental view of the world... It was all of no use; the only
difference is that I'm a little calmer and overall happier, but
it's still of no use all I have done. Today I just considered
going for the easiest way towards freedom, i.e, physical
suicide, the ultimate samadhi of nothingness; because it looks
like that by the use of mental techniques I just can't escape
this world of suffering... So unfair, life is: Not only you come
here to suffer, but also there's the survival instict that won't
let you just end things. I wish I was not such a pussy.
#Post#: 33504--------------------------------------------------
Re: When you say T/R is a kind of cellular knowing...
DIR By: Jed McKenna
Date: January 1, 2018, 11:28 pm
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Thanks for sharing. What you see is that which is seeking. You
might have been given a body to realize that. Do you really know
what comes after you take you own life? Maybe it's more misery
than you are experiencing right now. Worth the risk... hmmm...
doubt it.
What are you holding on to that is causing you such grief.
Really, name it, claim it, own it and let me know. Perhaps I can
assist.
Love ya, Jed.
P.S. Perhaps I can't and it's all up to you.
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