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#Post#: 22622--------------------------------------------------
Re: My Thread. Mine.
DIR By: Jed McKenna
Date: July 11, 2016, 12:36 am
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Safe travels and say hello to the vine if you meet her.
Love ya, Jed
#Post#: 24599--------------------------------------------------
Re: My Thread. Mine.
DIR By: aar24
Date: October 22, 2016, 1:37 pm
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I'm full of shit. Typed up a message about "me who doesn't wanna
feel" hoping you'd say something like "Oh this is good, soon it
will be upon you and you'll suffer and throw up all your
supposed issues in a big black ball of tar and be all happy and
loving and full of light or enlightened..."
Numb out, distract, hope. Wanna say "until I grow tired of it,"
but it's just... hope. I don't KNOW that this gets better, that
life isn't just myopic cycles of discontent, craving and
aversion, walking in distracted circles towards my grave.
Nobody can help me. There's nothing I can read. There's no magic
knowledge to be bestowed upon me. I'm just full of shit and numb
about it.
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Re: My Thread. Mine.
DIR By: aar24
Date: October 22, 2016, 10:56 pm
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How to determine the question? Could use a way to focus - still
feel too all over the place.
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Re: My Thread. Mine.
DIR By: Jed McKenna
Date: October 23, 2016, 1:20 am
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In Truth you are everywhere and everywhere is you. No problem.
Just entertainment. Thoughts create problems and thoughts are
not real... hence neither are problems.
Love ya, Jed.
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Re: My Thread. Mine.
DIR By: aar24
Date: April 1, 2017, 4:18 pm
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Hi again Jed.
I don't know what to do. Sometimes this child in my chest peaks
out. He's small and scared, and just wants to love.
Seems all I can do is comfort him when he's ready, to give him
what he needs, to stop making demands of him.
I love you.
#Post#: 27870--------------------------------------------------
Re: My Thread. Mine.
DIR By: Jed McKenna
Date: April 2, 2017, 7:19 am
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Tell him to go back to the drawing board and come up with a good
question... :P :P :P :P
Love ya, Jed
#Post#: 27883--------------------------------------------------
Re: My Thread. Mine.
DIR By: aar24
Date: April 2, 2017, 4:30 pm
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I re-read your excerpts in Incorrect about questions, how the
question is the obstacle. I've never quite understood that bit.
I see how the lack of an answer is irrelevant.
Take it you're saying the fact that questioning is happening
points to the confusion, that finding the "right" question is a
matter of directing a light to the apparent confusion.
The main obstacle right now seems to be around the other humans,
wanting their love. It's like it hasn't clicked that what I'm
looking for isn't where I'm looking for it, that there's nothing
humans can really give me, and that even if they could they'd be
an unreliable resource for it.
But how to pose it as a question escapes me. "Why" seems dumb.
How wanting humans happens, what that wanting is seems obviously
relevant but I get the sense these types of questions aren't
what you were getting at. Clarification here would be nice if
possible.
#Post#: 27891--------------------------------------------------
Re: My Thread. Mine.
DIR By: Jed McKenna
Date: April 3, 2017, 1:35 am
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As Buddha is purported to have said (he probably said a
millionth of what has been attributed to him), the cause of
suffering is desire. :( :( :(
Desire is an attachment or an aversion (same thing, but
different polarities) to anything, and the most painful ones are
the one you create though your stories. :P :P :P
At the H/A level human love is attainable but not the garbage
society says it is. At T/R, human love is meaningless because
there is no one ''out there'' to love. In reality, ''LOVE" is
all there is. But I reiterate, it's not what you think it is.
:-* :-* :-*
Desire what you will but I caution you against being attached to
your desires. Attachment glue is very sticky. The solvent is
available in limitless quantities, intent awareness. Desire your
human love all you want, it can be fun... but don't take it, or
anything... including me, seriously. Seriousness is a much more
weighty illness than desire and it is currently at pandemic
proportions. :'( :'( :'(
On a more practical level, something that a few of my Nav Series
students have used successfully, I suggest you list the
qualities you seek in a lover. Five or ten will do. Then turn
all your effort spent in thinking and seeking love to
living/modelling out the qualities you seek. Forget about
chasing human love, just focus on being those qualities you
seek. I guarantee that given enough patience someone ''special''
will come into your life. :o :o :o
Remember, anything that comes goes. ??? ??? ??? Said person
will eventually leave you (or visa versa) :-\ :-\ :-\ as this
is the nature of the dream. Watch closely how he/she speaks of
and deals with past relationships, which how they will treat you
as well when it ends. :o :o :o
When you eventually tire of such things (trust me, you will) you
can focus your energy more effectively on the only thing that
''might'' matter in this dream... you know.... THAT! ;) ;) ;)
Love ya, Jed.
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Re: My Thread. Mine.
DIR By: aar24
Date: April 3, 2017, 8:27 am
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So the simple act of listing qualities was pretty enlightening
(excuse the word choice)
1. nurturing, "everything is okay"
2. accepting of my neuroses (feel comfortable enough to share
honestly)
3. sense of humor
4. lacks concern in appearances (i can wear sweatpants
continuously without incident)
5. cute face and a tight little body
I had to struggle for anything past number 1, so I reiterated it
in number 2 then made up some **** in the rest. As far as
modeling goes, the takeaway seems to be, if anything, to be more
nurturing myself so I don't need to go out and nab a second
mother. Don't see the point in trying to be funny (already do
that too much for my liking) or getting a sex change (although I
guess that might be traumatizing enough to initiate a
death/rebirth process).
Made it clearer WHY I'm seeking a love relationship - I just
wanna be coddled.
Edit: Also, what's a man without a woman? My hot air balloon of
masculinity's at stake here.
#Post#: 27906--------------------------------------------------
Re: My Thread. Mine.
DIR By: aar24
Date: April 3, 2017, 9:53 pm
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In other news, finding it funny how I keep forgetting that,
ultimately, I actually do know what's best for me. (Okay maybe
not ultimately, but for now.)
Note to self: Breathwork GOOD. Vocalizing GOOD. Movement GOOD.
And none of it requires outside techniques (body knows best).
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