DIR Return Create A Forum - Home
---------------------------------------------------------
INVISIBLE GURU FORUM
HTML https://jedmckenna.createaforum.com
---------------------------------------------------------
*****************************************************
DIR Return to: Member Posts
*****************************************************
#Post#: 14745--------------------------------------------------
Re: My Thread. Mine.
DIR By: Jed McKenna
Date: September 15, 2015, 2:01 am
---------------------------------------------------------
Hi there.
If fighting the illusion doesn't work for you, then love it too
death. It can be done that way. Forget about being honest. It's
not possible. You are using words which originated with
Maya/ego. Humans are the people of the lie. Just get used to it
and do the best you can to be Truthish.
Love ya, Jed.
#Post#: 16314--------------------------------------------------
Re: My Thread. Mine.
DIR By: aar24
Date: November 19, 2015, 1:06 pm
---------------------------------------------------------
Unlimited perspectives, some strategically chosen by nobody, a
self-automated virus.
At the moment, wrestling with the idea of control. Like it's
obvious that the phenomena are totally out of control, but from
the perspective of the virus. Attempts to rearrange the
phenomena >>> having to reveal more code, according to its
apparent algorithm.
Some of the "code" coming up of late is sexual, stuff that's not
socially acceptable and rests on the border of "Can I love
that?" and "I' don't really wanna do that, right?" I tell myself
that everybody must have shit like that going on underneath,
that to sexually repress is human, because feeling like I'm the
only one sucks. Thinking nobody would listen to the specifics
without being paid, that I'd be likely to end up in a looney
bin...
And I know feel I'm just getting started.
The other part is social, seeing how much fear is really at the
wheel. Allowing that, or beating myself up, and allowing that. I
see that needing any of that to change is the same problem.
The love will come if it comes. There's glimpses, and then
there's the rest of the ride.
#Post#: 16325--------------------------------------------------
Re: My Thread. Mine.
DIR By: Jed McKenna
Date: November 19, 2015, 9:12 pm
---------------------------------------------------------
It's all a ride.
Enjoy... Jed.
#Post#: 16454--------------------------------------------------
Re: My Thread. Mine.
DIR By: aar24
Date: November 24, 2015, 9:34 pm
---------------------------------------------------------
Just re-read most of your second book. Not under any illusions
that I'm doing anything but idly passing the time - regardless,
was a fun reread.
Been thinking about commitment to this process. The first thread
of the delusion has been exposed, on the outer edge of blanket,
keeping me warm and giving me a place to hide. Pulled it enough
to see some stuff, and it seems I may be content with that. If
I'm not meant to really get into this journey, so be it. Who
cares? Zzz...
I've seen enough to entertain doing what I actually want. To
disobey. Forces undoubtedly push and pull without my say, yet on
the surface I seem, if not freer, slightly more lucid about my
makeup, about being pushed and pulled. If I get tired of that
and wish to dissolve it, I'm glad I've had your books to
reference, that I'll have a map, something that lets me know I'm
undergoing a human thing. Simultaneously walking off the Earth
and following an archetype. And, again, if not, zzz...
#Post#: 16455--------------------------------------------------
Re: My Thread. Mine.
DIR By: aar24
Date: November 24, 2015, 11:42 pm
---------------------------------------------------------
Distractions vs inevitability in a no-holds barred cage match
#Post#: 16457--------------------------------------------------
Re: My Thread. Mine.
DIR By: aar24
Date: November 25, 2015, 12:06 am
---------------------------------------------------------
The doctor prescribed an ounce-a-day for my insanity but I'm
taking pills instead. Zzz...
Dreaming about locations on a map, where do I fit? Zzz... Pills
may be wearing off but I'm still comfortably numb. Not looking
forward to spreading out the doses. Weed, laptop, sleep,
reading, calling people, compulsive ruminating - eyes shut and
writing here helplessly. I know you can't help me. I'm writing
to myself. There's no kidding myself about self-perpetuating my
own sleepwalking. Jailer and jailed.
Zzz...
Not expecting answers anymore. I can just write outward?
Thinking it must be frustrating, writing a book about waking up
and having people go OUTWARD? OUTWARD? OUTWARD? In limbo between
not being serious about this waking up business and being less
involved in dream circumstances. Plenty of time for
distractions. Narcotization. Obvious why you said you don't do
it unless you can't not. I feel like I'm not at round 1 yet,
already throwing in the towel. Even if I did start, where would
it go? Distraction or suicide.
Zzz... Ain't gotta feel a thang. Reading this giving myself "too
smart for your own good" vibes. Lalalalala
#Post#: 16461--------------------------------------------------
Re: My Thread. Mine.
DIR By: Jed McKenna
Date: November 25, 2015, 12:50 am
---------------------------------------------------------
;) ;) ;) ;D ;D ;D ;D ??? ??? ??? ::) ::) ::) ::)
#Post#: 16469--------------------------------------------------
Re: My Thread. Mine.
DIR By: aar24
Date: November 25, 2015, 1:06 am
---------------------------------------------------------
Hey that wasn't what I was looking for, where's my advice? :'(
#Post#: 16470--------------------------------------------------
Re: My Thread. Mine.
DIR By: Jed McKenna
Date: November 25, 2015, 1:32 am
---------------------------------------------------------
It all lies in between the lines... erh.. faces.
Love ya, Jed.
#Post#: 22612--------------------------------------------------
Re: My Thread. Mine.
DIR By: aar24
Date: July 10, 2016, 1:14 pm
---------------------------------------------------------
Hey again,
About to go off to a distant land with not much to do but chill
out and be in the jungle. Equal parts beautiful and horrifying.
Feel stuck at a place where it's obvious that the body isn't
what it's seemed, nothing but an assumption about passing
perceptions that I don't know the origin or substance of, and I
can't seem to find what I am. Still feels like I haven't
actually started, though I suspect I'm just on a slower
pre-school plan right now (hope that I'll "actually start"
embedded in the suspicion).
The world doesn't seem as attractive - suspect I won't find
happiness there. Girls and close friends/family - in a word,
"people," - are the biggest draw. Guess I just float down the
lazy river and actually look when/if I'm ready. Not sure if
there's a way I could get things kick-started, and not sure if I
would even if I could.
Thanks for helping me recognize that I'm not really doing the
thing, that I'm happily snoozing, even if I occasionally trick
myself into thinking otherwise.
Love you, too. As best I can.
*****************************************************
Page 2 of 6
DIR Previous Page
DIR Next Page