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Re: KayF
By: Jed McKenna Date: October 21, 2014, 5:51 am
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Don't expect anything approaching soon. Be here now as good old
Ram Dass said.
Love ya, Jed.
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Re: KayF
By: KevYo Date: January 1, 2015, 1:12 pm
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Hey Jed,
I’ve been in a relationship with someone since September. She’s
been a great guru in my “awakening” journey or whatever the f*ck
you wanna call this. I find that relationships can shine light
on areas where I still believe in a “self.” She loves me (at
least that’s what she tells me). I tell her I love her. But I
can step back and see it all as meanings and bundles meanings
and thoughts attached to sensations + perceivings. I don't
really believe in any of it. I can't anymore. Of course, I don’t
tell her this. I play my role. I've come to see that maintaining
relationships is nothing more than customer service. Give them
what they want, because hey, who the f*ck cares. But I still
have a lot of work to do. So here is me working through some
stuff. Any feedback is welcomed.
Everything is you. There is nothing else. Make no mistake about
it. It’s ALL you. So what are you afraid of? I am afraid that if
I break up with Vanessa, I won’t be able to bring another person
to Greece with me again. If I bring someone new to Greece with
me, my relatives will think I don’t care about them. They would
feel forced to take care of a stranger they don’t care about. My
relatives will feel shitty about pretending to like someone who
they don’t care for. I will be burdening my family.
I am a burden to other people.
I am a burden. Where is the person who is a burden to other
people? What is a “burden”? Where are all the people? Look for
them. Where is personhood in your experience? Do you experience
it? It’s all just this. In front of me. There is no burden, no
other people, no me. Further. Don’t let up. Use relationships
and illusions as your teachers. Rest in all of this. Welcome
all.
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Re: KayF
By: Jed McKenna Date: January 2, 2015, 11:39 am
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You are the imagining the burdens. You will slowly die under
their weight. Just look at old folks. Their garbage is not much
different than yours. Cling to your imaginings. It doesn't sound
all that clever... how do you know how your family will treat
someone else... and more importantly, do you really give a damn,
I mean, are you still worried about what your family thinks of
you. Geez.... who is living you life, really WHO IS LIVING YOUR
LIFE. And don't give me any b.s. about it being the 'Greek' way.
Surely you aren't living in that kind of a mind set.
Love ya, Jed.
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Re: KayF
By: KevYo Date: January 2, 2015, 1:27 pm
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Here are some thoughts that took me on a ride just now.
Vanessa does nothing for me and I do everything for her. She is
soft and weak. She is spoiled. She is a unappreciative of the
things I do for her. Blah blah blah. There is no "me" doing
something for "her." It's all just stories.
I get it now, Jed. I don't get to point outwards. All outwards
pointing is distraction from ME, the source the "out there."
It's all me. Where is all of it? In me. And there is no "me."
There is just IS.
IS will constantly arise. There is no DONE DONE.
What am I pursuing then? It's pointless really. this journey is
kind of silly. I feel kind of silly. Why do this? Further.
P.S. I don't think I need it but I'm interested in the Nav
Series.
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Re: KayF
By: Jed McKenna Date: January 3, 2015, 12:34 am
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Good, you don't need anything... but maybe you need to look at
everything.
Love ya, Jed.
P.S. Nah, I take that back. Nothing is required and all is
given.
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Re: KayF
By: KevYo Date: January 15, 2015, 1:35 am
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My "life" is feeling more and more like a dream lately. Nothing
unusual or extraordinary happened but I can just experience the
make-believeness of it all. Everyone is merely a character in
the dream. All relationships are arbitary, especially those who
say they are my "family". Nothing is serious. Nothing can be
important. But everyone in the dream believes everything is so
serious and so incredibly important. And that's okay. Oh, silly
dream characters. Where am I in this dream? Can't seem to find
it... There seem to only be the dream. Everything is the dream,
there is no me in the dream, only the dream itself.
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Re: KayF
By: Jed McKenna Date: January 15, 2015, 2:01 am
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Got it... next... ::)
Love ya, Jed.
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Re: KayF
By: KevYo Date: February 10, 2015, 12:22 am
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Hi Jed,
I've been having desires arising of wanting to have sex with
beautiful women. I know you'll say "I can't want because I can't
have." Is it sex I want? I don't think so. What is it then?
Connection? Feel loved? Feel like I matter? I think more resting
in the perceiving is called for. All those things presuppose a
"ME" and "Girls" "Out There." Where are those things? Do they
exist inherently? They're all within my awareness. It's all me.
And there is no me. There are no girls. What's left? This.
Arising.
I may have taken the foot off the gas pedal in the inquiry of
me-ness. I thought I was in a pretty good place where I can tap
into that which cannot be simpler really easily. I took time off
to smell the flowers and gotten lost playing out my person-hood.
I've been in a relationship and I've been wearing my costumes
too tightly. Time to dive deeper again. Do I break up with her?
I am going to visit her in Sweden next week. I feel like this
will be the end of our relationship. KayF, don't anticipate and
look forward to anything... I don't want to end the relationship
because I don't want "me" to do anything. Trying to keep ME and
ego out of attempting to affect change or do anything when it
comes to relationships. I just want to sit and observe what
transpires.
#Post#: 9270--------------------------------------------------
Re: KayF
By: Jed McKenna Date: February 10, 2015, 12:31 am
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Dear Kay:
Sit and observe what happens... have you ever done anything
else, really?
Love ya, Jed.
#Post#: 9521--------------------------------------------------
Re: KayF
By: KevYo Date: February 17, 2015, 10:55 pm
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My relationship has dissolved. My visit to her country is not
over so I am still in Europe. We're through but we're on good
terms. She's sleeping next to me right now. I feel unloved and
rejected. I seek closeness, affection and intimacy and thoughts
and feelings of hurt arise when I don't get it. I'm disappointed
that we probably won't have sex. I don't have any resentment.
It's all a lesson helping me move past my limitations. I welcome
all of it.
Okay, let's work. There is no one here to be unloved and
rejected. There is no rejection or love. When I reach out to hug
her or cuddle her in bed, her lack of reciprocation is just
that. Nothing more.
Now why would I want to cuddle and hug her? Because I want
affection and closeness. There is no affection and I can't get
closeness because everything is already close. Now, the feeling
of hurt. Is there someone here who can be hurt? No. So what's
that feeling? I don't know.
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