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#Post#: 34--------------------------------------------------
TW. Childhood sexual abuse.
By: ThinWishes3 Date: July 19, 2017, 7:59 pm
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When I was 6 I was taken advantage of by a family friend.
While I won't go into super details it wasn't rape, there wasn't
penetration, but fingers put where they shouldn't have been, and
I woke up w him inside of me.
He made me promise not to tell and I didn't. And I hate myself
for it.
As I got older and told therapists they made me think this could
have a lot to do w who I am as a person. Does anyone else have
any trauma as a child that they believe contributed to their
issues today?
#Post#: 50--------------------------------------------------
Re: TW Childhood sexual abuse.
By: relapsequietly Date: July 19, 2017, 9:48 pm
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TW
I was molested multiple times by an uncle as a child. I've
blocked most of the memory out but as I'm getting older things
are starting to come back. I have faint memories and even slight
flashbacks of things he did to me. I'm currently in therapy
trying to work through it since it's taking over my life and my
ed has gotten worse because of it.
Also in 8th grade I was sexually assaulted by a boy on the bus,
and junior year of HS I was sexually assaulted in a car by a
senior boy.
I believe my ED is 75% due to the fact that I was sexually
abused.
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Re: TW. Childhood sexual abuse.
By: ThinWishes3 Date: July 20, 2017, 2:25 pm
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TW
I also had an issue in HS w someone who was 24 at the time I
don't wanna call it rape but kinda felt like it.
Most recently this past summer I had another weird experience w
a guy friend.
I'm happy you're talking about them in therapy
[member=20]relapsequietly[/member] I'm just unable to do so but
I do think the episode when I was really young has at least
something to do w all of this
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Re: TW. Childhood sexual abuse.
By: relapsequietly Date: July 20, 2017, 8:07 pm
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[quote author=ThinWishes3 link=topic=17.msg78#msg78
date=1500578708]
TW
I also had an issue in HS w someone who was 24 at the time I
don't wanna call it rape but kinda felt like it.
Most recently this past summer I had another weird experience w
a guy friend.
I'm happy you're talking about them in therapy
[member=20]relapsequietly[/member] I'm just unable to do so but
I do think the episode when I was really young has at least
something to do w all of this
[/quote]
It's totally okay if you never talk about it, but if there ever
comes a time where it starts to affect your life in extreme
ways, I'd try to make an effort to talk about it. It will ruin
your life otherwise. However if you're doing okay with it now,
don't worry about therapy for it. Though therapy is EXTREMELY
difficult and brings up a lot of unwanted feelings and memories
and flashbacks I'm somehow getting validation for it.
#Post#: 91--------------------------------------------------
Re: TW. Childhood sexual abuse.
By: ThinWishes3 Date: July 20, 2017, 8:23 pm
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I told 3/4 of my therapists about it- my most recent doesn't
know!
One tried doing EMDR w me but I felt like it was all BS. The
middle one like pried it out of me and was super aggressive
about always bringing it up. My last one randomly asked me one
day if it ever happened but we never got into details- I think
she called my previous one and got that info because who asks
that??
I don't rly think about it but I think it might have left some
effects although growing up I dealt w a lot of mental abuse too
so who even knows.
Either way, I'm happy you're talking about it if you're finding
it helpful!
I think my new therapist should know about it to paint a bigger
picture buuuut idk how necessary it is
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Re: TW. Childhood sexual abuse.
By: relapsequietly Date: July 20, 2017, 8:25 pm
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[quote author=ThinWishes3 link=topic=17.msg91#msg91
date=1500600189]
I told 3/4 of my therapists about it- my most recent doesn't
know!
One tried doing EMDR w me but I felt like it was all BS. The
middle one like pried it out of me and was super aggressive
about always bringing it up. My last one randomly asked me one
day if it ever happened but we never got into details- I think
she called my previous one and got that info because who asks
that??
I don't rly think about it but I think it might have left some
effects although growing up I dealt w a lot of mental abuse too
so who even knows.
Either way, I'm happy you're talking about it if you're finding
it helpful!
I think my new therapist should know about it to paint a bigger
picture buuuut idk how necessary it is
[/quote]
If you're in therapy for your ED I'd say talk about it, a huge
majority of ED's develop because of sexual abuse. My therapist
apparently always knew/had a feeling even though I never told
anyone but waited for me to confirm it.
#Post#: 102--------------------------------------------------
Re: TW. Childhood sexual abuse.
By: ThinWishes3 Date: July 23, 2017, 11:52 am
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[quote author=relapsequietly link=topic=17.msg93#msg93
date=1500600356]
[quote author=ThinWishes3 link=topic=17.msg91#msg91
date=1500600189]
I told 3/4 of my therapists about it- my most recent doesn't
know!
One tried doing EMDR w me but I felt like it was all BS. The
middle one like pried it out of me and was super aggressive
about always bringing it up. My last one randomly asked me one
day if it ever happened but we never got into details- I think
she called my previous one and got that info because who asks
that??
I don't rly think about it but I think it might have left some
effects although growing up I dealt w a lot of mental abuse too
so who even knows.
Either way, I'm happy you're talking about it if you're finding
it helpful!
I think my new therapist should know about it to paint a bigger
picture buuuut idk how necessary it is
[/quote]
If you're in therapy for your ED I'd say talk about it, a huge
majority of ED's develop because of sexual abuse. My therapist
apparently always knew/had a feeling even though I never told
anyone but waited for me to confirm it.
[/quote]
Yeah I am, I probably should tell her I just don't know how to
just say that!
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Re: TW. Childhood sexual abuse.
By: relapsequietly Date: July 23, 2017, 10:09 pm
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[quote author=ThinWishes3 link=topic=17.msg102#msg102
date=1500828772]
[quote author=relapsequietly link=topic=17.msg93#msg93
date=1500600356]
[quote author=ThinWishes3 link=topic=17.msg91#msg91
date=1500600189]
I told 3/4 of my therapists about it- my most recent doesn't
know!
Yeah I am, I probably should tell her I just don't know how to
just say that!
[/quote]
It's definitely not easy but if you can somehow get it out,
you'll feel so much better!
#Post#: 107--------------------------------------------------
Re: TW. Childhood sexual abuse.
By: Katmaz69 Date: July 26, 2017, 7:12 pm
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TW
When I was 6 I was serially assaulted at a park. I had left the
house just after dinner because mom was yelling at dad. And
things always got really bad then. So I left. And while I was
sitting a swing a man came up and asked why I was crying. Anyway
without going into too much detail. I told my parents what had
happened when they found me at the park. And they immediately
shut me down. And kept asking why I was so stupid to have gone
out after dark. And why I would talk to a strange man. And yes
it's affected who I am today. Mpd was directly effected by this.
#Post#: 115--------------------------------------------------
Re: TW. Childhood sexual abuse.
By: ThinWishes3 Date: July 30, 2017, 5:01 pm
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I'm so sorry your parents did that to you! Going through
something traumatic is terrible on its own. Not having the
people who are supposed to protect you believe or off to help
you, makes that even worse.
What is mpd if you don't mind me asking
[quote author=Katmaz69 link=topic=17.msg107#msg107
date=1501114361]
TW
When I was 6 I was serially assaulted at a park. I had left the
house just after dinner because mom was yelling at dad. And
things always got really bad then. So I left. And while I was
sitting a swing a man came up and asked why I was crying. Anyway
without going into too much detail. I told my parents what had
happened when they found me at the park. And they immediately
shut me down. And kept asking why I was so stupid to have gone
out after dark. And why I would talk to a strange man. And yes
it's affected who I am today. Mpd was directly effected by this.
[/quote]
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