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Life Circumstances
By: davidwilliammusic Date: April 2, 2021, 11:39 am
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I have not spoken about this before for various reasons but now,
since deciding to pull back from social media indefinitely, I
feel its the right time to get a few things straight.
For the last 7 years I have been staying with someone, I do not
have a house of my own, and its been an incredibly difficult
period because I have not had the support and environment I need
as an artist to thrive and grow. Despite the setbacks and
difficulties I have managed to release a few albums, singles and
play live when I can online and out on the streets in Edinburgh.
However, I know in my heart I have so much more Music in me and
I know I could have been so much more productive these last 7
years had I been given the chance. That has made me very sad as
it feels like wasted time.
I didn't want to make this public up until now because I know a
lot of people are having difficult times and nobody enjoys
hearing another complain about their woes. I had hoped by
putting work out there and by playing live when I could fans of
my work would support me by buying my albums and singles but
sadly that hasn't really happened. I played many shows live
online and hardly received anything for it and the amount of
people who have actually bought my albums and singles has not
been worth mentioning. Streaming services pay such a low rate
that it hardly makes it worth it unless you are regularly
receiving millions of plays.
What people who have followed my work may not know is despite
this, all the money I have earned through playing on the streets
or sales online has went to buying equipment - guitars, amps,
pedals, etc... all bought so I can make high quality recordings
and give a good sound when I play live because it matters
greatly to me. That is despite having no house of my own.
People may see me live online or on YouTube videos and believe I
am in some comfortable set-up and doing well but its not my
house I'm playing from! It has not been a harmonious
environment with the person I live with, they do not share my
passion and enthusiasm for this Music and at times its been a
very disruptive environment so it has been extremely difficult
for me to keep going. This is one of the reasons I haven't
scheduled regular live shows and have to just play live whenever
I can.
I found myself in this situation after things fell apart in
continental Europe in 2014 with my ex-girlfriend Kate. I tried
to remain there and carry on but it wasn't to be and I had no
other option but to return to the UK. I knew it would not be a
supportive environment for me but I had no other alternatives
and I've tried my best. Through all of this I have stayed true
to my vision of the Music, even turning down opportunities which
could have taken me out of these circumstances, because they
were not the paths I wanted to go down.
Wherever I have played live online I receive little genuine
feedback and when I do get encouragement it is cliches like
"keep going", "your music is beautiful", etc but no real
financial support in the way I need to help me move on from this
situation, find a more supportive living environment so I can
keep progressing the Music. Despite having around 100 followers
on Instagram, followers on YouTube, Twitter, etc I have seen
very little genuine and sincere interaction on any of these
platforms for the last 7 years, no sense of community. Mostly I
am just met with complete lack of interaction or trolls. I've
also had my fair share of them whilst playing out on the
streets, something that is unlikely now to happen again in the
foreseeable future because of this scamdemic. Now I feel it is
time to come away from all of this and return to making Music
how I used to before all these social media experiments on
humanity.
As far back as 1999 when I was just beginning in Music I
strongly wanted to play to and with people in a room, person to
person, like human beings, and even back then I sensed people
were reluctant and resistant to that strangely natural
phenomenon! It has only got worse and now we're expected to
play over screens and its being promoted as the "new normal".
None of this feels like a world I belong in or want to be part
of but I have tried over the last 7 years because there seemed
little alternative. Now it just feels not worth it and I'd
rather put my energy into making Music like I used to - well, at
least as best as I can under these circumstances.
So if you want to support me and help me continue I would
greatly appreciate if you could buy my singles and albums on
Bandcamp or donate via Paypal. If I can begin to create a
harmonious and nourishing environment around me then I can make
better and better Music and let's see where we can take it from
there. Perhaps new more fitting opportunities will emerge
because I sense there are others like me who are increasingly
disillusioned with the way the world is going. Let's go back to
the start, get the roots right and build the world we wish to
live in - even if its apart from the mainstream.
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