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The Call Of Nature
By: davidwilliammusic Date: February 23, 2021, 9:32 am
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Up until the age of 9 you would always find me out playing, all
day long. I'd come home from school, throw my bag in, go
straight out to play football in the local park with my friends,
come home around 5pm, get my tea, and go out again for another
few hours until it was bed-time. During school holidays it
would be the whole day. If I wasn't playing football, or
occasionally tennis, I was riding my bike around the city, going
on adventures or climbing trees somewhere. When the Olympics
and Commonwealth Games were on we'd recreate the events somehow
around us, using our imagination to create the track, trying to
find things to use as a makeshift javelin, or using boulders for
the shot put. The only times you'd find me in was when there
was extreme rain, wind or cold. Then we'd play snooker, chess,
listen to the radio, whatever...
At 9 years old I got my first computer. I didn't ask for it, I
didn't even know about computers then, but they were becoming
more popular and so I guess it spread around as the thing to get
for your child. My friends all got them around the same time as
me. It didn't have internet so you could only play games or
learn programming in BASIC, the in-built computer language. I
enjoyed many of the games but I never got so into that like
others around me. I was more fascinated with the programming
side of things, but I was never a tech-head, it was just I saw
the potential for creativity there. I imagined designing games,
doing the graphics, but I soon realised I wasn't intellectual
enough to actually do the programming. So it was more the
creative potential that attracted me than anything else. During
these years, between 9 and 13 years old, I still played outside
a lot, although the computer did pull us in. Looking back now,
I can see this as a critical turning point in humanity. As the
years went on, from 13 years onwards, I watched how all my
friends who had previously loved joining me casually playing
football for hours in the park or going on adventures no longer
seemed interested in that. With the rise of cable TV, more and
more they wanted to stay in for hours watching endless live
football matches or golf or tennis tournaments. With Eurosport
and Sky Sports you could sit all day and just watch endless
sport. My friends sort of split into two at this point - the
sports-mad ones who now no longer wanted to play sport so much
but watch it and the computer-mad ones who were never into sport
in the first place and who just wanted to stay in all day
playing games or programming. I didn't fit into either camp,
although I could dip into each world for a bit of time.
It was at this stage, around the age of 15, that I began feeling
more and more lonely. I could be surrounded by 5 or 6 friends
and yet feel totally alone, as if I was on a different
wavelength. I was physically with them but not really with them
any longer. At that time I didn't understand what was going on
in my life.
Once we left school and started going out drinking to pubs and
clubs, this sense of being isolated increased. I could feel a
distance was growing between us but I couldn't understand it. I
first noticed that I seemed to be 'invisible' to them - they
wouldn't hear me when I tried to say something, my whole
presence and being seemed to be slipping away from them or them
slipping from me. Years later I would understand this in terms
of frequencies and energy. I literally was moving out of their
frequency range and them out of mine. For a time we still
physically appeared in the same reality but eventually that came
to an end also. It coincided with many crucial events in my
life. A so-called "mystery virus" I got during my time in my
first job which led to me having to leave. (I later discovered
this was not a "mystery virus" at all but a spiritual shift, a
kind of pre-awakening stage). Somewhere in the middle of this I
met Kate online. I never intended to go online to meet people,
I was always interested in making real life physical connections
but various things lined up to steer it that way. I had no
money cos I wasn't working, my brother had just received a PC
for Christmas (first computer we had with internet) and so being
alone and isolated I soon discovered I could chat to people
online from all over the world without leaving my house. At
first it seemed an amazing thing. Around this time I used to
wander through the crowds during the Edinburgh Festival soaking
up the vibe and thinking how nice it was that all these
different nationalities of people were together. So to get the
opportunity to chat with them online was quite exciting at
first.
Now, looking back, I see the signs were there of where we've
ended up today. Many of the people I chatted to back then were
awkward, had a lot of issues and just weren't straight-forward.
I too was shy and could get nervous but if you dealt with me
straight on I would reciprocate it. Kate stood out amongst this
because she was the only person who was straight-forward and
simple to deal with. We connected instantly. There was no
sense of pretence, no difficulties in trying to communicate.
Others would go so far with me then shut off so you couldn't get
to know them, couldn't get close to them.
Throughout all those years I always stayed close to Nature in
one way or another, no matter what those around me were doing.
I went up the local hills regularly or for walks in nature. I
even continued kicking a football off the wall on my own when I
was 16 (and got abuse for it), so determined was I that even if
all my friends were no longer interested, I wasn't going to
allow them to kill my joy. I always instinctively kept that
connection, or it drew me back, no matter how much society and
people around me were trying to pull me away, because I am also
that!. Nature is my Nature! I didn't understand it then the
way I do now, I just instinctively acted that way.
Now I see and hear so many people talking as if they are
spending their whole lives immersed in technology. It is
clearly what the system wants, the way it is taking society, the
A.I. agenda and looking back, I can see where it was starting to
creep in during my childhood in the 1980s. In every area of
life now you can see the coldness of it spreading and it
becoming normal. There's even many who seem to be loving it -
loving replacing the real, physical world of nature with some
A.I. fantasy land, somehow convincing themselves that sitting at
their computer all day long and immersing themselves in an
online world is no different to the physical world of trees,
plants, rocks, water, sun, wind, etc...
At this time I feel myself called more than ever to Nature,
reminded of its beauty and wisdom. It communicates to me that
it has always been there - the trees were 'watching' me as a
young boy playing in amongst them. They remember. They know I
am one of them and that connection can never be broken. I am
not anti-technology at all. It has brought wonderful things
into our lives but if we're not aware it will bring horror too.
It should be used as a tool to enhance our lives and be
harmonious with the natural world, not to replace it.
Some it seems, no matter how much you try to remind them, may
have somehow disconnected themselves from that connection so
that they cannot feel the beauty, power and splendour of Nature
but there are many out there who just need a reminder. To be
nudged back into that Natural State. I write this for those
people who can hear and want to celebrate in it with me and find
the human being again in humanity.
* Originally posted on old forum 1st Dec 2020 *
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