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Distortions of Truth
By: davidwilliammusic Date: February 23, 2021, 9:30 am
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Over the years it has come to my attention more and more that
things I said in the past were either intentionally or
unintentionally heard incorrectly, distorting the Truth I was
attempting to put out into the world. This distortion has shown
up in many ways and I'd like to put these things straight here.
I've already mentioned on Instagram posts how I began noticing
that when I took an action or put some words out there they
would come back at me, usually with a delay of years, in a
distorted version. This has caused all kinds of chaos and
confusion, especially with new people I have met who seem to
have a false impression of me.
One of the examples I can give is the SoulJahm logo, which is a
rainbow mosaic graphic, which Kate designed. She designed this
spontaneously and there was no discussion about it. The rainbow
had been following us around in the early days of SoulJahm
regularly - the song "Over The Rainbow" played on radio stations
as we arrived at places, real rainbows appearing in the sky at
significant moments, etc... Lots of synchronicities involving
rainbows so it was a purely innocent and natural thing to use
that symbol as the SoulJahm logo. To us it represented Freedom
and Positivity and Oneness.
After Kate's death, I had to return to Edinburgh in 2014, with
literally nothing, and start again. I knew nobody other than
family but gradually people started coming to me. What struck
me as odd at first was many of these people were younger than
me, which I wasn't used to. I was puzzled by this for some time
but went with it because I am not prejudice towards age, colour,
nationality, etc... From certain things said to me during these
encounters I was left with the impression some people were
perceiving me as some sort of supporter of the LGBT movement.
They seemed to see me as an ally and then would leave confused
that I didn't share their belief system. I'm not against
anybody's sexuality or sexual preferences but neither am I a
supporter of any movement.
I could go on giving endless examples of misunderstandings like
this but the point I want to get to is eventually it dawned on
me that so much of this could be traced back to an encounter I
had with an Irish girl and French freemason between 2007 and
2010. I met her on the David Icke forum just at a time when I
was going through a big spiritual awakening. Some very bizzare
coincidences began happening and one of them was that my
girlfriend at the time, Kate, had actually met this woman at the
end of 2006 on a women's fashion forum. Seeing the girl was
into conspiracies and that we had just signed up to the David
Icke forum, she passed it on and the girl joined. I never knew
any of this until I bumped into her a few times on the Icke
forum and we discussed the loss of our mothers. She had lost
hers in 2006 and my mum had just recently died in 2007. I
seemed to be coping better with the death of mine than she was
with hers and so I offered her some words of comfort and
encouragement. Soon after we all discovered we inadvertently
knew each other.
From there, I didn't have too much contact with her as she was
Kate's friend and they kept in touch via email and Facebook. I
wasn't on social media then so the only time I had contact with
her was when our paths crossed on the Icke forum. We got on
fine to start with but gradually it became apparent our views on
things clashed. Her French boyfriend, who soon became her
husband, was not in the picture at this point but in the
background. She claimed he couldn't join the forum because of
his job.
In 2009 me and her had a few bust-ups on the forum over
differing views on spirituality. She lashed out at me and
brought Kate into it too. We sorted it out with no bad feelings
and I suggested we stay in touch away from the Icke forum, via
email. She agreed. At first she was communicative but
gradually I noticed she was being evasive. By August 2010 it
all ended in a bust-up. Something I said freaked her out, she
brought her husband into it, suddenly out of nowhere he was
writing to me and then she tried to pass my emails onto
"authorities". First trying the moderators at the David Icke
forum, who weren't too interested then threatening to go
further. One of the moderators actually checked my private
messages and could see there was nothing untoward that I'd said
to her. She had also lied blatantly and claimed I got her email
address from my girlfriend Kate without her permission. The
moderator could clearly see it was she herself who had agreed
and passed it on to me. She ranted quite disgustingly at me
publically on the forum and even mentioned her husband was
"standing behind me smiling" as she typed.
At the time of all of this, Kate and I brushed it off as some
maniac couple and let it blow over. In fact, I wouldn't even
have known of the public rant if this other forum member hadn't
alerted me to it. They had both made it clear they wanted
nothing to do with us and so Kate and I moved on and set off to
Europe.
Pretty soon we began noticing synchronicities involving them
were continuing to appear. This went on and on but that is for
another time. The part I'm getting to here is there were
certain topics discussed between us during that time that have
been part of the distortion of Truth I am seeing still playing
out to this day.
One of them is that I once said to her that I saw us as part of
a "movement". My intention there was to imply a spiritual
movement, a movement of conscious awakened beings uniting.
Years later, in the same timeframe around 2016 when the LGBT
thing began appearing in my life, in the world there was that
movement and also the "me too" movement. It felt like all this
stuff was coming into my world during those years when it was
nothing to do with me or what I am about.
Kate had discussed with her my kundalini awakening in the early
days, 2007, and one of the things she said was "he must have a
big mission ahead of him". At the time I pushed that kind of
talk away because I didn't believe in missions. Something
remarkable had taken place in me, a significant change in
perception of reality, and life was never the same again but I
didn't see myself as on any mission. So I played down that kind
of talk yet from 2016 onwards I noticed people were coming to
me, some implying I was Jesus or something, a lot of Christian
based talk and activity was happening around me.
Around the time of the bust-up she was portraying me as some
creep guy and actually got it into her head me and Kate wanted
to come to Nice, France to live with her. The whole email
exchange was so absurd that all I could do was be humourous and
silly so I referred to some photo of myself sitting on the couch
wearing pinhole shades and jokingly said "yeah, all I have to do
is put on my pinholes and all the girls come flocking", which
was a sarcastic comment because the truth was in those days it
was just Kate and I and very few people interacted with us.
Around this time I also remember seeing a post from her on the
forum where she said "there must be a man out there for all the
girls".
As I said, I couldn't understand why so many younger people,
particularly women, were trying to interact with me from 2016
onwards. Despite Kate and I trying to make friends for years
nobody wanted to know, even in Europe, people mostly stayed
away. Now that I was on my own, it was like a door had been
opened and they were all showing up, one after the other. At
first I was amused by this but when the behaviour increasingly
became erratic and unstable it quickly got tiring.
Sometime during this time that interaction with the Irish girl
and her comments came back to me and I wondered if this was
another distortion.
Her husband in his emails said to me "we know who you are"
despite me never having any previous contact with him. He also
said "I hope you remember this encounter". Several years later
I start getting people coming up to me randomly, offline and on,
acting as if they know me. He told me "as far as we can see you
are full of hate, everything in your world is fake" and that has
also tried to manifest itself in my reality over the last few
years. He said he could "introduce me to some occultists in the
UK" before leaving for Europe and when I returned, certainly
some of the people I met could be in that category.
Many things I've been trying for, which are the true reality of
what I am about, have been polluted by this nonsense. Now I
said things too but it was always in response. When I joined
the David Icke forum I wasn't looking to make friends. I was
there to share spiritual information with people. Not because I
was being rude but because my interest was always to make real
life friends and that was how I was when I was 19 and that was
still how I was when I was 27 and still today. The internet I
saw as a useful tool and it was there I met Kate when I was 19,
but within a year or two it became a real life relationship.
Neither of us had any intention of it remaining online. If you
can't be with people in person online communication can be a
technological help but that is all as far as I'm concerned. I'm
not interested in living in a world creating a network of online
only relationships, which has seemed more and more what people
have been trying to get with me as the years have went on.
So I also expressed this to her during our conversations because
she was running all around the Icke forum making connections
with people and encouraged me to "tell us about your life". My
response was "I'm not here to make friends", meaning not on that
forum to make them. That doesn't mean I meant in general life
and I've continued to remain open to that in person but it
rarely happens because most people I meet want to have an online
relationship, even people I've met who live in Edinburgh! Those
who do seek out me have usually been crazy and unstable and
certainly not in tune with me. So whether that statement about
friends on the Icke forum is another distortion is in all of
this is also a possibility.
A final thing I can mention here...
At one point, in response to him boasting that I had nothing to
offer, that he basically had more going for him in his life, I
responded "yes, thats right, I have nothing to offer". It was
my way of diffusing his arrogance and asserting that all I have
to offer is Nothingness or Consciousness or no-thing.
Predictably, this has been distorted and its interesting that
when I busked I regularly got guys looking in my moneybox,
making comments or comparisons about how much I was making,
standing trying to talk to me, distract me and block other
people from accessing my moneybox. When I played online, at
first for free, accepting tips, very few people tipped, although
many wanted to chat with me or made comments about my "beautiful
songs". When I moved over to pay-per-view style playing there
was resentment and complaints. It has been clear for me to see
for a long time that there has been a deliberate attempt to deny
me financial reward for my work - unless its in a pub! I've had
a few offers to play in pubs, even once it was put to me I could
earn £300 per week but I turned them down. Why? Because I saw
what happened whenever I played Music around people drinking.
They didn't care about the Music and only wanted to chat and
were often disruptive and not even good drinkers. I saw this at
gatherings in the house and I saw it busking outside. I knew if
I went into pubs where it'd lead and knew without a doubt it
wasn't my scene. Again, nothing against pubs, and I will drink
now and again when in the right company but I've had to deal
with so much extreme behaviour involving alcohol for years now
that I rarely do. I have in mind much more beautiful settings
for where I can play my songs.
Why is this relevant to anyone reading?
Well, David Icke has spoke of the Problem-Reaction-Solution game
that the system plays on the masses and I look at what has
happened in my life as a smaller, personal version of that. As
I said, I wasn't on the Icke forum looking to make connections,
they came to me, they came into my space, interacted with me and
then blew up when I didn't agree with them. I responded but
didn't react so it seems they tried again and again. They also
inverted everything, which I've since learned is what
narcissists do, to make out I was the one looking for the
encounter, I was the one full of hate. They did this again and
again trying to get a reaction. The solution, it seems, is that
they wanted to make things so hard for me I'd give in and come
to their ways - join the club, the masonic club, which we now
clearly see trying to dictate to the masses how they should be
living.
It was an emphatic "no" when I was 19, it was an emphatic "no"
when I was 27 and its an even louder "no" today. I am a free
being and I live my life as I please and in accordance with my
own inner authority, which is the power of Consciousness itself,
or God or Jah, or whatever name you want to give it.
Some further things I can add to this list...
"I won't get involved with you"
"Just forget about me. I don't think you'll be able to"
This came from the Irish girl in a message she sent to me at the
end of 2015. Both these statements have followed me around in
interactions with women since then. I will meet a woman online
or offline, we will notice each other in some way, and there
will be some kind of attraction or pull... whether that is
friendship, romantic, music-based or whatever. As its turning
into something (ie. she is getting closer), she will pull away.
But never truly leave.
All of it plays out like the messages sent to me from the Irish
girl in 2015.
Its as if I thought I was talking to her and her alone but
somehow her words penetrated into other women I meet and affects
their behaviour. Are these women conscious of this going on?
I'm not sure. Sometimes it seems yes, sometimes not.
Its literally like some kind of possession and its why I urge
people to be aware, raise your frequency above this dark madness
and one of the ways to do this is to be open and communicative.
This dark madness can only continue and grow when its not
brought to Light. When we talk about it, talk about our
experiences, no matter how strange, we bring it out of the
unconscious realms and into the conscious to be seen and
dissolved or cancelled out.
There are many out there, especially YouTubers, who are offering
spiritual advice from their comfortable surroundings, the money
rolling in, pretending that they've had it tough. Again, the
French freemasons words to me in 2010 were "you don't know all
the things we've been through" and its interesting that this
theme has popped up again and again through the mouths of those
around me. Often they say things like "I see what you've had to
go through" and keep their distance.
All of this implies and when I look at my life I see this, that
some seem to be putting themselves out there as "spiritual" from
their comfortable surroundings, telling others they have to put
up with shit, lack of money, lack of this and that but never
explaining themselves and how they are managing to remain
comfortable.
When I look at it, none of these people have been through what
I've been through. When I look at it, they all accepted and
entangled themselves in positions in society, either before or
after their supposed spiritual breakthrough, which compromises
them. They don't go far enough into the Truth. Its a
superficial spirituality because anybody who goes to the real
Truth could never argue against the fact that all of nature
belongs to us. It doesn't belong to any one individual or
groups of individuals and to even argue against that is a form
of insanity.
It is clear and obvious that the trees which provide fruit are
not created by us but by nature or God (whichever word you wish
to choose), just like the rocks, the sea, the sky. It is all
just there, provided for us. Its not like a car, a shop, a
house... man-made things. The system has the right to withdraw
those things from us, it can say "we built your house for you,
we put the shops there" but then I have the right to say "yes,
but you built those things on land that you falsely claimed,
land that does not belong to you, land that is free to us all,
provided by the Creator for ALL of us".
So you may very well take away the houses, the shops, all these
things, but then we can take back the very land you built those
things on from you. If the trees were allowed to grow freely
there would be fruit for us all for free. I have yet to hear
any of these spiritual YouTubers talk about these things, state
this clearly.
It doesn't matter that the society is set up this way and we've
lived like this for thousands of years and there would be
anarchy and society would crumble if we accepted it. It doesn't
matter. The Truth is still the Truth and to claim otherwise is
to distort the Truth and this is why we live in a world where a
few have a lot and many have very little.
One of the ways many of these YouTuber spiritual people pull you
in is by mixing Truth with lies. They attract you initially
with some content that you resonate with and then gradually you
start to see other aspects of what they are into which feels
dark and polluted and not joyful and light. There is a coldness
to them, they don't want to give out to anybody who can see
through them but they also want that energy. In the past, I've
had to deal with this push and pull game, its narcissistic in
nature. You must cut these people out because when they sense
you are leaving energetically they will try to pull you back in
once again. It's not just spiritual YouTubers who do this of
course, but anyone you interact with. If they are not sincere
stay away and don't feel bad about it.
Another random statement the Irish girl Susan made back in 2010
which seems to have caused problems for me with older women...
"How will he feel about me when I'm older?"
I've never said anything untoward about older women or done
anything to give them reason to feel insecure around me.
* Originally posted on old forum 9th Nov 2020 *
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