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Underneath
By: Amaris Date: May 12, 2018, 4:50 pm
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Upon waking that everything was normal, but somewhere on the
walk back to her household something changed. Maybe it was the
memories attached to dress she had chosen, or the way the air
carried the scent of the gardenias from the garden as she passed
St John's. Whatever it was, she was melancholy by the time she
reached the back gate. She entered the door to the basement and
could hear his voice as he worked in the shop. She left him to
his work and went upstairs to check on the children, check in
with Andrea and Aliyn, and then sat in the library a while
considering her options for the evening...she made a decision
and left the library.
She walked down the hall with a singular purpose. Deep in
thought, had she passed anyone she would not have noticed.
Turning the corner, she stopped at the door just long enough to
open it and step inside. A moment to burn blood and her eyes
glowed red as they scanned the room before moving again. She
crossed to the bed and climbed in.
Everything here carried his scent. She hugged his pillow and
curled around it as if she could absorb something of his essence
into herself. Breaking down her body shook convulsively, the
dry, silent lament of one who neither shed tears nor needed to
breathe. She did not realize until this moment how deeply she
missed him .. or maybe she just could not admit it until now.
But 'now' hurt like tearing the scab off of a wound that never
healed and finding the infection it hid. She missed everything
about him, the emptiness feeling like drowning...burying her
face in his pillow she whimpered until each wave of loss ebbed.
She was torn down by the reality of missing someone who was
right there every day. She curled tighter about his pillow and
prayed the sorrow would not tear her apart.
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Re: Underneath
By: earthdawn66 Date: May 12, 2018, 7:17 pm
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*she was curled up when he door opened and she immediately could
sense who it was. Gavriel stood in the doorway when he stepped
inside and closed the door. He did not light the lamp but came
closer to the bed*
You are not yourself Amaris.... is there something i can do no
matter how little it might be?
*Was Gvariel but his tone had changed it seemed to have returned
almost to the Feeling of when they wee away from the City*
I am always here for you
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Re: Underneath
By: Amaris Date: May 12, 2018, 8:19 pm
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She wanted to sit up, to apologize for entering his room without
permission, she wanted to do and say many things..but she
didn't. He sounded so ... normal, but she was afraid it was
just her She swallowed instinctively and managed to whisper
"I miss you, I just wanted to be near you without feeling like
you hate me....to feel like you still...we...I just miss you."
She curled tighter still around his pillow
"Can I stay a while longer?"
#Post#: 3955--------------------------------------------------
Re: Underneath
By: earthdawn66 Date: May 13, 2018, 10:31 am
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Of course you can stay. . .
*he smiled at her*
would you like me to stay with you
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Re: Underneath
By: Amaris Date: May 13, 2018, 12:39 pm
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She didn't so much answer as nod in the dark and reach out to
pull him into his bed with her. Abandoning the pillow for his
body she managed to wrap herself around him with her head
resting on his chest before breaking down again. It took a few
minutes before she could collect herself enough to speak and
when she did it came out in a rush of words
"I am sorry I am so selfish, maybe it is human nature, or
kindred nature to be so...I suspect the truth is that I am just
a horrid spoiled child...I am sorry for every awful thing I have
done to you...I am sorry for sculpting you into someone else to
comfort myself ...I am sorry for not being mature enough to
handle my own emotions..and am still struggling with it. I am
sorry I hurt you in every way possible, and that my blood
allowed me to do these things long after a normal man would have
walked away- ran away. I am sorry I couldn't understand that
love does not have to be taken from one to be given to
another... I know I do not deserve your forgiveness...but I miss
you so badly it makes my bones ache...and I cannot pretend any
longer that I do not love you ... "
She became suddenly quiet as the realization hit her...she had
dug through the debris and found the truth. She dissolved back
into the tearless sobbing that she had momentarily gained
control of.
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Re: Underneath
By: earthdawn66 Date: May 13, 2018, 4:40 pm
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*he just laid there and every little moment she bore more of her
soul he was a little closer until at the end he was nearly
beneath her as she had curled up tightly with him. Words to
comfort her escaped him as he was processing all she said and
the only thing that escaped his lips*
Forgiven
*his arm around her body and along her spine did he know her
body yes he did he knew every spot on her she enjoyed and those
she did not*
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Re: Underneath
By: Amaris Date: May 13, 2018, 5:47 pm
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She laid there mostly on him, listening to the steady beat of
his heart
"I have lived more than four centuries, in all of that time and
all that transpired within it, the things I have done to you are
the ones I am ashamed of. Losing your love is my greatest
regret. I don't know what to do to lessen the damage, each time
I try it seems I make it worse."
She looked up at him in the darkness, without the ability, he
was only a vague shape, but that was okay, she was afraid of
what she may see if he were to look back
"Thank you for forgiving me, perhaps now I can work on forgiving
myself. Could you tell me what I have to do ... what I need to
do to win your love again?"
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Re: Underneath
By: earthdawn66 Date: May 14, 2018, 5:47 am
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Never lost. It was hurt ripped and crumpled. . But was always
there. . It just took time to adjust to the different
circumstances we find ourselves in
* She could feel his hands on her face cupping it siftly*
#Post#: 3969--------------------------------------------------
Re: Underneath
By: Amaris Date: May 14, 2018, 7:54 am
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"I don't know how you could love me after all I have done. I
thrust these different circumstances upon us, yet I never wanted
to hurt you."
She moved up and kissed him softly, almost as if she were
afraid, then laid her head back on his shoulder.
I am afraid to look at you. Since all of this happened, your
eyes have been so cold. I'm frightened of finding all of this to
be pretty words meant to appease me ... I'm afraid it's only
blood making you say these things, not your heart. ... I am
afraid your eyes will hold more truth than your words."
#Post#: 3972--------------------------------------------------
Re: Underneath
By: earthdawn66 Date: May 14, 2018, 11:58 am
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Don't need to be afraid I have come full circle from love. To
betrayal to hate to anger ti understanding back to love
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