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Re: Manu/Matt 3
DIR By: Al0909
Date: November 3, 2021, 6:15 pm
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"No I want to make it go away so," and going back to bed with
you would make it worse. I too didn't have much in me to resist
it anymore, yet it made me nervous to think about actually doing
something with you. I couldn't see the damn basket anywhere, oh
well I could just take a cold shower anyway.
#Post#: 226--------------------------------------------------
Re: Manu/Matt 3
DIR By: jennipeo
Date: November 3, 2021, 7:01 pm
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I watched you and I bit my lip, but I nodded then. "Of course, I
mean, you can borrow mine..." I murmured out but I kept my eyes
on you. how were yous og rgeous even when youw ere all flushed
like that? Why was it getting so hard for me to start resisting
you, when I boviously didn't want to do anythign that'd go
agaisnst what you felt was right for you, but wow, it was hard
at times, honestly... It really was. This was definately one of
those moments when it felt difficult... I jsut wanted ot join
you in that shower even, but I couldn't just...
#Post#: 229--------------------------------------------------
Re: Manu/Matt 3
DIR By: Al0909
Date: November 3, 2021, 7:13 pm
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I left the room after having grabbed some clothes not having it
in me to feel this embarrassed anymore. I found my basket in the
showers yes. Luckily I didn't ran into anyone, not wanting
people to see what was up with me.
When I came back I wore a large hoodie and sweatpants, and I had
damp hair. I threw my boxers in the laundry. I couldn't take
facing you right now so I tried to mind my own business. I took
out books from my a drawer in my desk and put them in a bag,
thinking I could go study or something. I still felt so lame.
#Post#: 240--------------------------------------------------
Re: Manu/Matt 3
DIR By: jennipeo
Date: November 3, 2021, 7:46 pm
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I kept my eyes on you as you returned and I sighed some. "Matt,
seriously, could you at least talk to me?" I asked then. "I
don't get it, why are you... like... this upset about it? It
happens, I've had it happen too... It's just a normal bodily
reaction" I tried as I watched you. I didn't wannt you to feel
bad or anything obviously, and it happened to everyone. It
didn't have anything to do with being horny, and even if you
were horny, that was normal too.
#Post#: 245--------------------------------------------------
Re: Manu/Matt 3
DIR By: Al0909
Date: November 3, 2021, 8:02 pm
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"I know it can happen and yes it has happened before not with a
person in my bed but from a dream or something. I know I am
acting really weird, and you could have someone who's not weird
like me okay? Everyone thinks that I am a freaking weirdo. I am
upset because I want you and I know I am not...I don't know what
I am doing okay? I overthink things all the time...and I said I
wanted to wait and I go and get turned on so my body doesn't
want to wait but I don't know what to do... I am nervous to
screw up and I don't know how to relax and enjoy myself, I don't
want to be in my head when we are... when we...are having sex,
only time I am not in my head like that is when I am on stage
and soon that's going to be gone... so... I am a wreck, I can't
be...this adventures spontaneous boyfriend... do you think I
wanted to go shower? No... I wanted...to be with you instead...
but I don't know how to so that's that... I am gonna go study,
can we forget this? I don't know how to do this okay? I am not
good at dating, sex or any of that stuff... so yeah... plenty of
guys here, and I am sure some of them are gay or bi..." my
confidence was shit, people here had fucked me up hard, and also
the going deaf thing. I didn't want to not be able to hear when
my lover spoke to me, yeah I wasn't boyfriend material.
#Post#: 253--------------------------------------------------
Re: Manu/Matt 3
DIR By: jennipeo
Date: November 14, 2021, 3:41 pm
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I stared at you as you went on about you being a wierdo and
whatnot.
"Matt, it's okay. You say it yourself, you want to. Your body
does as well, that doesn't mean that we need to rush anything
right away, or that it's wrong to rush if that's what we want. I
mean, when you're attracted to someone your body want things,
that's pretty... what's the word... like basic reaction?" I
stated as I watched you. "But our... like minds, they take a
longer time sometimes to get ready to do things that our bodies
want to do. And it's fine, okay?" I tried as I watched you.
"Please, don't think like that about yourself. We all overthink
sometimes, and sure, some... voerthink more, but... you don't
need to overthink with me, okay? I'm pretty... see through,
okay? I will let you know whatever I'm thinking or feeling, and
I want you to do the same. There's no need for overthinking,
alright?" I promised. "It's okay that you don't know how to,
we'll find out together, okay? I don't know how to be with
someone I... really like and really trust, but that's something
I'll figure out with you when you're ready to figure it out. I
don't want an adventurous or sponatenous boyfriend, I want you
Matt... And I mean, if you want me, then you have me, okay? I'm
terrible at dating... I mean I never want o, but I do want to
with you... I don't want any of those guys. Why won't you trust
me? I want you" I stated then as I kept my eyes on you. "You
won't screw up, and you will enjoy yourself. If you're not
enjoying yourself, then we'll figure out something that you'll
enjoy. Not everyone likes everything after all" I tried.
#Post#: 258--------------------------------------------------
Re: Manu/Matt 3
DIR By: Al0909
Date: November 14, 2021, 4:41 pm
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I dropped down on my bed and looked at you. "Thank you, I needed
to hear that. I am just very...nervous about all of this, I feel
so inexperienced and that sucks, I worry about things a lot.
It's just my personality. I actually want to be able to be more
spontaneous so maybe I'll try that out with you," I smiled
weakly. "So er... are we hanging out today? Last chance tomorrow
school's starting back up again," you were really sweet and you
were the first person who didn't think I was weird and I liked
that a lot. It felt very heartwarming.
"What do you want to do?" I wondered.
#Post#: 265--------------------------------------------------
Re: Manu/Matt 3
DIR By: jennipeo
Date: November 15, 2021, 3:07 pm
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"Well, of course, jsut let me know" I explained then. "But... I
mean I like you for you, your personality is a huge part of
that. I don't want you to feel bad, but I really am into you" I
explained as I watched you.
"I mean, it's fine to be nervous though. I'm a bit nervous too,
I think that's only natural, especially when you really want
something to work out well, you know?" I asked as I smiled some
at you, leaning out to take your hand as I sat down next to you
(minns inte om hanr edan satt men då är det klargjort tlol) "I
mean, I obviously want to hang out if you wannt to" I stated
then as I looked a bit thoughtful. "Is there anything special
you would like to do? Wanna head to the movies tonight or
something?" I suggested.
#Post#: 272--------------------------------------------------
Re: Manu/Matt 3
DIR By: Al0909
Date: November 16, 2021, 12:55 pm
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The movies, yeah that could be difficult if my ears started to
act up and there were no subtitles. But it had been a while
since I went to a movie.
"Yeah eh sure, the movies, want to find out what's running?" I
asked and grabbed my phone with my free hand and a little
fumbling managed to unlock it not wanting to let go of your
hand. I scrolled through the features.
"No horror right?" I said thinking we both seemed to be
scaredy-cats. I smiled a little about that thought and saw there
were some Marvel movies as usual.
#Post#: 279--------------------------------------------------
Re: Manu/Matt 3
DIR By: jennipeo
Date: November 17, 2021, 4:00 pm
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I chuckled some as I nodded. "No, no horror" I stated then. "Or
we could go for a picnic" I stated then. "Enjoy the weather
instead of hiding int he darkness somehwere" I suggested, I was
honestly p for anything. Not swimming, but otherwise I was up
for anything really.
"But no, horror is definately not my thing" I admitted then.
Life was dsort of filled with it as it was, why fce even more
just because somehow?
"Honestly, a picnic sounds nice though, doesn't it?" I asked
then curiously. To me it did at least.
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