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Re: Manu/Matt 3
DIR By: Al0909
Date: October 19, 2021, 3:50 pm
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(cutie)
"I don't feel well," I admitted having caught almost everything
you said now since I strained myself to read your lips. "Do I
sound funny? I can't hear how I speak obviously," I wasn't sure
what to say about any of this right now. You had told me not to
compare myself to anyone else. But I couldn't help it.
"I eh... I overthink things often, and a lot... only time I am
not overthinking is when I am practicing for a musical you know?
It's my element, I feel rather confident there, or did now days
I worry I will... sound weird or that my ears will act up when I
sing and therefor sing false or whatever," I chewed on my lip.
"It's... I mean yesterday... you and Luiz, and now you and I and
I can't be him, speaking some sexy Spanish or whatever, I am
just...awkward and nervous, I know I shouldn't compare, just
worried...I don't know what to do, after we kissed I started
thinking if I should take my clothes off or what I was supposed
to be doing?" I hadn't even considered what I really wanted to
happen, just to make you happy. That was just... not right!
#Post#: 49--------------------------------------------------
Re: Manu/Matt 3
DIR By: jennipeo
Date: October 20, 2021, 2:16 am
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I watched you and I smiled as I shook my head.
"No, you don't sound funny" I stated as I kept my eyes on you. I
nodded as you kept talking, wanting to show you that I listened
to you.
"That's your element?" I asked as I smiled at you. "Can't you
teach me somehow? I'd like tos hare that with you" I stated, but
I couldn't sing, but to just try to do something that was
important to you just in order to share it for a bit, that felt
nice.
"Yeah, I know yesterday, but... Matt, honestly, don't get me
wrong, but he seems to be into me still. I mean, if it was him
I'd want to be with I would have been with him. You know? But
it's not him... You're not awkward, you're perfection" I stated
as I watchd you. "I don't want you speaking Spanish, I want you
speaking you. I want you being you, not being anyone else" I
stated as I ket my eyes on you. You were for sure adorable and
perfection to me after all.
"Well, after we kissed, we could kiss some more, we could hug,
we could watch the movie. We could do just about anything that
the two of us want to do. Okay? I don't want you to rush into
something. You'll know when the time is right for that. And
there's nothing you're supposed to be doing. You're not supposed
to be doing anything that you're not doing. Your gut will tell
you. Okay? And honestly, don't rush anything for my sake. That's
not what I want. I want to be with you, in every single way, but
I'm in no rush at all, as long as I get ot be around you, okay?"
I stated, still speaking slowly as I kept my eyes in yours so
that I didn't divert my face so that you could read on my lips.
#Post#: 55--------------------------------------------------
Re: Manu/Matt 3
DIR By: Al0909
Date: October 20, 2021, 8:41 am
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I found it hard to keep up with all that and rubbed my temples.
"Thanks," I said and stood up. "I think I just want to go home
and lay down," I wasn't feeling great. You were sweet, very
sweet. But still yeah you wanted to be with me now, but I just
wasn't the right person for you, I wanted to be but I couldn't
be some party guy, we were so different. You'd realize this
sooner or later, and my confidence was low to be honest. I was
just not good enough, or adventures enough. I wished I had
someone to confide in right about now, a close friend. I started
to head back to the dorm, still swaying slightly since I had
issues with my balance.
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Re: Manu/Matt 3
DIR By: jennipeo
Date: October 20, 2021, 9:02 am
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I sighed, but I nodded. I couldn't like force you to be around
me or to confide in me when you weren't up for it somehow. "I'll
walk you back" I stated as I watched you. I'd just go for a walk
then and clear my own head for a second, and then see if you
felt up to it back then. Perhaps? Shit, I just had this weird
gut feeling about this, and I idn't like weird gut feelings, but
what could I possibly do? There wasn't much to do, and it
worried me. Well, you worried me right now, but I couldn't be
selfish and force you to speak your mind either.
I followed you back to the dorm, I saw how you swayed and I
didn't want you to accidentally fall over or something. I
reached out to take your wrist in order to get your attention,
and if I got it I asked if I could get you anything.
#Post#: 68--------------------------------------------------
Re: Manu/Matt 3
DIR By: Al0909
Date: October 20, 2021, 9:24 am
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It was also in fact troublesome for me to speak properly and
have long conversations when I felt dizzy and my ears acted up.
I cleared up all the mess on my bed and lied down, I closed my
eyes. I didn't need you to like leave or anything I was just not
feeling great physically. I tried to relax. I didn't feel so
good right now.
(du kan ju hoppa till manu kommer tillbaka sen om du vill det?
Matt ska vila lite bara)
#Post#: 74--------------------------------------------------
Re: Manu/Matt 3
DIR By: jennipeo
Date: October 20, 2021, 9:35 am
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I decided to go on my walk, give you a little space to like
rest. Because me being around you right now would not help you
rest, because well, I was so worried that I'd just be smothering
you I felt. I sighed some as I came back. I hoped you felt
better, but I was a tad worried about you honestly still, but I
hoped, well, that you'd feel better.
I opened the door and stepped in before I had a seat on my bed
and I watched you. "Do you feel better?" I asked then with a
little smile, not my usual like girn-smile, but still. It was a
bit frustrating to be honest, the conversation we'd hd. That you
were so worried about, well, fucking Luiz.
#Post#: 81--------------------------------------------------
Re: Manu/Matt 3
DIR By: Al0909
Date: October 20, 2021, 9:47 am
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I was sitting up, watching a show on my laptop, wearing my
hearing aids now.
"Yeah, better," I nodded and looked at you before looking at the
screen again. "Had a good walk?" I asked glancing at you before
looking back at the screen.
"Sorry about before I just... ever since the accident," John
pushing me down the stairs, "I get these type of episodes where
I get dizzy and my hearing well goes away, these helps a bit," I
pointed at the hearing aids.
#Post#: 86--------------------------------------------------
Re: Manu/Matt 3
DIR By: jennipeo
Date: October 20, 2021, 10:53 am
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I smiled some as I watched you and I nodded.
"I'm glad" I stated and I nodded then. "Yeah, it was honeslty
quite nice to have a look around" I stated then as I kept my
eyes on you. I watched the hearing aids and I nodded then.
"That's good, that they're helping" I stated then before I
sighed as I clenched my fist from. The fact that you had to
suffer to this degree though that you'd get these kinds of
symptoms. I still wanted to beat that guy up so badly that he
didn't know what his name was anymore. Honestly.
"You don't need to say sorry, okay?" I asked then as I watched
you.
#Post#: 90--------------------------------------------------
Re: Manu/Matt 3
DIR By: Al0909
Date: October 20, 2021, 11:28 am
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"Thanks," I nodded. "I...I know I am being weird, I get that I
don't need to be like Luiz or anyone else, that I need to be me
and that that should be enough, but I am not confident, people
think I am weird, I just don't know how to date, or...you know,
intimacy," I shrugged. "But I want to hang out with you and
all," I really did. You were amazing. We could always hang out
and just get to know one another I figured, that was a good
start. I hoped it was a great start to be honest but one never
knew.
#Post#: 95--------------------------------------------------
Re: Manu/Matt 3
DIR By: jennipeo
Date: October 21, 2021, 2:21 pm
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I watched you and I smiled some as I nodded.
"Thank you for being honest with me" I stated as I kept my eyes
on you. "Well, I don't really know how to date either, and...
Why can't we just be us?" I asked then. "Let's just be us and
date the way we want to date, and take things the pace we feel
is the right for us? Let's just do whatever we feel like is
right when it feels right?" I suggested as I watched you. "And
again, had I wanted to date someone like Luiz, I'd date Luiz. I
want to date you and get to know you" I stated as I watched you.
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